Triggering (SI/ED) - Worried &hugs? please.

[surprising mystery]

Im just worried about lots of things, I go from; Its fine, Im okay, Im not fat, I can cope, to, Its all falling apart, Im huge, how could I let myself get like this, there is no way I will cope. In a matter of hours...

Im feeling confused because I dont want to cut. But at the same time, I just have this idea, this vision, of doing it. And its tempting.

Its probably a mood swing, yeh, and everything seems to be connected to them. Im either feeling like Im living or feeling like Im dying because of them. And when its to do with BPD, is there ANY way to get rid of them, is there any cure? I know I have to slowly find ways to cope with them, but what frightens me is,, if thats all I can do, Im going to be like this, for the rest of my life

Can I have a hug? :s I feel so stupid. Its like, shouldnt I have accepted this is my lot by now.

[Katiee]

Hun, I don't know what to say, but I feel the same way somtimes. Take care. xo.

[Popple]

*cuddles*
You shouldn't have accepted it by now because it isn't going to be like this forever and you are going to get through this. You are strong marie and you can beat this you are doing really well so don't give up.
Its hard now but it will be worth it when you get there.
Feel free to pm me if you need anything.
Take care of yourself sweetie
xx

[Tig]

You aren't stupid, and it would be hard to just accept something which is so difficult to deal with.
Are you on a mood stabiliser at the moment? If not, do you feel that is something you could ask for? I know in BPD it is widely used so it may help you to not swing so much from emotion to emotion.
Hugs,
x

[Whispered Secret]

I'm sorry you're feeling like this hun. I'll be around when you get back from work, just msn me :)

You aren't going to be like this forever. You are doing so well, and you were amazing with me earlier.

Keep fighting. :)

I don't know a lot about BPD but if you need to rant to me later, just rant, I'll listen :)