I read somewhere that sometimes, people with OCD, have urges to do things like kissing strangers, or jumping from buildings, or go in front of trains and things like that, and i noticed that i have these urges, like kissing or hugging people no matter the age or gender or if they are people i know or strangers, and im embarrased by these urges. i can't tell my psychiatrist about this, because she will think bad of me and abandon me. or i can't tell her that i have urges to jump from building, because she will think im suicidal, when i don't have these urges when i want to kill myself.
as i have other obsessions too, some of them im embarrased about, so i can't talk to my doctor, so she can't have a clear image of me and what she can diagnose me, if there is something to diagnose. and this causes me distress in my life, but no one can help me, because i can't tell anybody.
sorry this is a pointless post, but i wanted to tell someone. i don't know what to do.
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I'm pretty sure if you read it somewhere, then most psychiatrists (and your psychiatrist) will know that this kind of behaviour can become like urges.
I'm sure she won't abandon you, it won't be anything new to her. If you don't think you'll be able to explain it right - maybe try writing it down and then you can add to it or edit it as you need to so you can put exactly what you mean to give to her?
I understand it can be embarassing to talk about some stuff, but as you can see yourself, she can't diagnose you or you get any help unless you try to tell her. Doctors and psychs see a lot of people, it won't be anything new to them or they think you're *weird*.
My RYL family:
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Sweetie, this isn't a pointless post.
I have weird obsessions as well, though I'm used to talking about them alot cos' I'm obsessed with them, but I don't have OCD.. it's something else. Anyway, I think you should tell someone if you have these urges, I know it can be a little but they will be able to help you. Your psych won't think bad of you or abandon you. Take care, hun. xo.
I'm OCD and I get weird urges like that... I never knew that's what it was from, but it makes sense. They won't abandon you. And if you explain you're not suicidal but just feel an illogical urge, they will understand.
Hi.im sorry that you have been having such a hard time.i think i can relate a bit.They are thinking of OCD and obsessive/compulsive stuff more with me now.i feel i have to touch something a certain amount of times in order to prevent others getting hurt sometimes and then i still worry if i didnt the right number of times or whatever etc.i also have compulsions to take tablets in large quantities daily too.This is partly cos ive been very low and feel i need to hurt/kill myself but it is also cos sometimes i have a compulsion to take the tablets or again someone will get hurt if i dont.i feel bad/ashamed about it too but you really shouldnt.i understand why you do but its not your fault or anything like that.PM me anytime if you want to and im sorry if this hasnt been any use!
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
thanks for your replies. i also feel that i have to touch things some times to prevent something bad happening. also do some things with the same order and things like that. a doctor had once diagnosed me with OCD, just based on the fact that my self harm was compulsive. i hadn't told him about my other obsessions and urges though.
these urges are really distressing, because im afraid that i might act on them. i have an appointment with my doctor in some hours and i will probably tell her.
My RYL family:
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I don't think I'm OCD but whenever I'm high up I have the urge to jump off. I've never been suicidal, and still aren't. I never let myself close to a cliff though and I keep the curtains closed if I'm higher than the first floor of a building cause I'm afraid I might give into the urge, maybe some kind of notion I can fly or other some such rubbish, I have no idea. I actually heard somewhere that there is a really long name for it but I can't remember it >.< you should ask your doctor or psych about them, especially since they are distressing. I don't normally come across mine so I've never worried about them. That and some of them are fairly harmless. Like the town where I grew up was on the beach and, by boat, it would take maybe ten minutes to go to this island and sooooo many times I've been tempted randomly swim there. I know I would never make it and the currents and rips that I could see between the island and mainland would carry me away but it was still there. At least it was safer since I'm a strong swimmer.
i told her and she asked me what triggers it. how can i know what triggers it? it just happens. does something trigger you to have the urges?
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
I get, what my old ed therapist called, intrusive thoughts, which are part of OCD. I get the thought of jumping in front of trains and doing other things I can't really mention here cos of triggers etc. but they are really hard to deal with.
My current social worker I haven't been able to tell. I did tell my last worker but she kinda dismissed it and said use ya coping mechs. Not helpful!
They get worse when my ED does so I think that my trigger.
I want to kiss the bottom of the ocean before I burst through its surface into the sunlight, otherwise I will always be wondering about what was left unseen at the bottom
i'm tired of chasing my dreams. i'm just gonna ask where they're going, and hook up with them later.
I thought that the whole point of them being 'intrusive thoughts' was that they weren't triggered?
Oh actually that would just mean they're not deliberate.
Anxiety was probably what triggered mine.
Mine aren't triggered. I had one today infact and it had reason to take over my thoughts. Luckily it wasn't too intense or gross.
I want to kiss the bottom of the ocean before I burst through its surface into the sunlight, otherwise I will always be wondering about what was left unseen at the bottom
i'm tired of chasing my dreams. i'm just gonna ask where they're going, and hook up with them later.
mine arent triggered either. they just come to my head. well, maybe when im passing the street, maybe the urge is more intense, but i dont think its a trigger.
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
I get a lot of random compulsions as well. None of mine are all that hard to deal with. Mainly touching walls or statues and tracing patterns with my fingers, and I can't leave until it's done. Also randomly jumping on the spot. The list is long but I'll leave it at that.
I do get a lot of (not suicidal per say but) random ideas of hurting myself to that extent. They aren't very strong for me though and are pretty fleeting (except for a period of a few months a while back) so I'm able to easily deal with them.
I haven't been diagnosed with OCD or anything but I wouldn't really be surprised if a doctor told me I was mildly etc.
"Watch me fault her "you're living like a disaster". She said "kill me faster", with strawberry gashes all over"
but they will be able to help you. Your psych won't think bad of you or abandon you. Take care, hun. xo.
