Triggering (Suicide) - HELP

just_different · 15-03-2009, 06:59 PM

i cant do this anymore i want to die
i have tried distracting myself
ive tried everything
i dont know what else to do

im scared
i want to die but i dont want to fail

i dont know why i feel like this and im so so sorry for posting again but i dontknow whta else to do

Born to be broken · 15-03-2009, 07:02 PM

im sorry u feel this way hunny ... can you talk to anyone about wats the matter? maybe go round to a close friends so they can try distract you ??

take care

Xx

Ranger Fairy · 15-03-2009, 07:05 PM

*Big hugs* I'm sorry things are so shit hun, the best thing I can say is hold in there, it DOES get better honestly I know from my own experiance, remember that it's a feeling it can't hurt you physically on it's own, it WON'T last forever it WILL pass. And if distraction is keeping you safe I think you should still do it, as if so it's def something and worth it.

Are you on meds for your mood?

Please keep safe sweetie
xxxx

just_different · 15-03-2009, 07:10 PM

i cant go round a friends because i dont have a friend to go to.
im not very good at distracting myself.

im not on any med no.

and the people at oak house have told me im always going to feel like this so what am i neven doing here?

i dont understand what is going on

Ranger Fairy · 15-03-2009, 07:14 PM

What about doing something you would have enjoyed when you were feeling better?

NO-ONE is doomed to always feel so shit *hugs*

I think you should talk to your doctor about some meds to lift your mood, atleast think about it and ask. It could make a big differance.

xxxx

just_different · 15-03-2009, 07:27 PM

i do still spend a lot of time with my horse
but i really dont want to go down to her at the moment which is really bad because she is basically what has been keeping me going.

And my doctor tried to give me meds for my sleeping but my mum refused and she wont have me any meds.
mi counceller person wanted to put me on anti depressants but mum wouldnt agree.

double_trouble · 15-03-2009, 07:37 PM

what is really getting to you at the moment? maybe sharing it in here and putting it out in the open will help ease the pain? *hugs*

just_different · 15-03-2009, 07:46 PM

everything is going wrong
and i just really cant cope with it.

im struggeling so mcuh just to egt up in the mornings and i just want to go to sleep and never wake up.
im messing everyhting up
i really dont know whats wrong with me

i just want to be happy

Katiee · 16-03-2009, 12:52 AM

Hunni, I'm so sorry you're feeling like this.
Please don't harm yourself, it won't make anything better.
Is there anyone you could speak to about how're your feeling?
You will get through this and be happy, just don't give up! I know it hard as well, but it was get easier. Take care, we're always here sweetie. xo.

Cazki · 16-03-2009, 12:55 AM

*Cuddles you* Im sorry that your having such a hard time. You dont deserve this. Please dont end your life, your such a great person even if you dont believe me or others and there are alot of people who care about you. You said that your not on any meds, do you get any support? I was just wondering whether you would consider going to your doctor/counsellor to talk about how your feeling and he/she may suggest putting you on meds.

Harming yourself will only make things worse and it will just lead to things going round in circles. Do you have anyone close to you who you could talk to? Could you perhaps leave a note for your parents or someone close to you so that they can give you the support you need. Things will get better, they wont be like this forever. Please dont apologise for posting your welcome to post anytime and as much as you need to. There is not a limit to the amount that you post. Please keep safe.

Take care best wishes Ian

just_different · 16-03-2009, 07:56 PM

I am at CAMHS at the moment but its not much help.
I dont really have anyone to talk to at the moment, i mean i have a mate who i quite often ring but she cant talk much atm.
and there is no way i can talk to any of my family they all hate me, just like evryone else.

Over the last week or so i have felt so muchc worse and more suicdal than ever.
it doing my head in i cant cope with it.
I really dont know what to do.

and im SIing a lot worse than i have done in a while now.

just_different · 16-03-2009, 09:40 PM

arggg
i feel so truggered right now for no reason.
i wanna die
i cant cope :(

sorry for posting yet again

but i dont know what else to do :'(

Ranger Fairy · 16-03-2009, 10:17 PM

Try and keep busy, e-mail people, play online games, watch a film

xxx

just_different · 16-03-2009, 10:26 PM

im trying but everything makes me think of SI
argg sorry to be so difficult
im scared
thir telling me what to do and im trying so hard not to
i have no one to ring
i text a mate earlier to see if she was free for a chat but she hasnt text back.
i think theyre right and she is fed up of me.
:'(

im so frustrated
i dont know whats wrong wit me
im so shit