Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Can i hide in my room and never come out

[brap_brap]

Arrgh i so hate this i rather hide in my room than to come out. MY mum was in a bad mood yesterday and again today

Maybe i do deserve her to take it out on me

Maybe people dont care about me

one of my mates cancelled on me last nyt again maybe she says oh it just nicola she doesnt mind

Maybe i shouldnt be here or i should not fight this

It just feels there is always a fight in my head to run or to cut

I got drunk last night to num the pain and i was i could rip the pain away forever

Maybe i should plan my own death

I hate living just now

I cant chill out in my house or i cant chill out when i take my pup for a walk cose my dad comes with me all the time

[Katiee]

Hun, I'm sorry you're feeling like this.
You don't deserve for mum to take her bad moods on you.
You do deserve to be her and to fight this.
People DO care about you. Maybe tell your dad and mum that you need time some for yourself? I know when I've got things going on I need to be alone to calm down and relax and sort things and get through it without doing anything stupid, other people need to be around people when they've got things going on otherwise they'll do something like harm themselves. I suppose it depends on the person and what works well for you. Is there anyone you could talk to about what's going on? Take care, sweetie. xo.

[double_trouble]

*hugs* i am sorry you feel this way. do you have anyone you trust that you can talk your problems through with? it sounds like a very lonely place you are in. what is bothering you? PM me anytime if you want to talk.

[brap_brap]

Hi guys its ok.

i do have a friend that i trust but i dont know how to start it i never do.

I was late home from college and my parents moaned at me so i hide in my room.

I wish i had the pills to end it now end all the pain that im going to suffer