Triggering (Suicide) - once a lier always a lier

[fallen wings44]

i allways say im fine....
i allways smile like im happy
i promised my conson countless of times i will not try to kill myself
but i just feel so guity so low so alone........i dont think anyone would care if i died......im not good person!!!!!!!! i am not good friend!!!! i just want sleep and NEVER wake up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[angel of despair]

hun id care if you died, and your an amazing person. I think alot of us on here tell lies like that. im sorry im not being much help *hugs* pm me if u wanna tlk xxx

[Wonderland.]

Sweetie don't be so hard on yourself, yes you may lie but it isn't in a mean or vindictive way at all. Your not trying to hurt people with your lies your trying to protect them aren't you?
Maybe try writing things down, i find that it is so hard to lie when its all down on paper, it may help you.

Amy x

[fallen wings44]

yes i am lieing to protect my friends and my family i lie to....... because if they knew the truth..... they will be sad or mad and i dont want them to worry so i have to lie to them.........

[Distortion.]

*huggles tight*
I'd care, I DO care hunny, okay?
You seem like such an amazing person x
Stay strong
x
x
x

[fallen wings44]

thank you.....

[Katiee]

Hun,
people do care, and would care and miss you if you died. *HUGS*
Can you talk to someone, please, about how you're feeling? Then, you can get the help and support you need. I can understand when you say that you pretend your happy - I do that alot to. But it doesn't make you a liar at all, hun. You are a good person and friend, don't think that you aren't. Take care, sweetie. We're always here, remember. xx

[fallen wings44]

no.....i cant.........

[fallen wings44]

it was my fauilt that my friend allmost died!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it is my fauilt that my friend is mad
i have messed up all my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[fallen wings44]

.....bump.......

[Sleepless123]

It sounds like you feel very low right now and also though you might feel like it please remember that everything cant be your fault realistically!You are not in control of everything.

Does anyone know how you really feel?Do you have any support/therapist?

i know it is a big step but if not you may need to reach out even if only to your doc or to find a therapist [if telling your family is too much].

It sounds like you could really do with some support but you can only do that by being honest with someone.

i know its hard to reach out but please dont feel that you have to do this alone.None of us can.However much some of us may like to try!

im sorry that your feeling so bad.

[fallen wings44]

no.........
yes....but she thinks that im doing well........

[fallen wings44]

she dosent know how i really feel..................

[fallen wings44]

.....bump