Triggering (Suicide) - Thats the point?

nuttybabe07 · 12-03-2009, 07:40 PM

ok, maybe this is going to be a bit of a rant and sorry if it seems it, i have posted on here before, but nothing like this before so apologies i just feel so desperate.

I am making plans to end my life. Why? because it is so pointless. I have tried so hard, tried to use the skills taught to me by my DBT therapy and therapist, try to talk to her and ask for help, my therapist is brilliant, but i really believe there is nothing more i can do, i cant even tell her how low i feel because i will be a disappointment to her and everyone. There is nothing more she or anyone can do i believe.

I feel so lonely, so unhappy, flashbacks and hallucinations and OCD symptoms are worse, i hardly sleep so everyday seems so much more difficult to manage. I cant take what he has done to me, he has ruined my life, even now when he isnt around to hurt me anymore.

Im sorry, i have tried so much to help others and sound positive, but its too much for me.

White Noise · 13-03-2009, 12:18 AM

I'm really sorry, but I don't think there is anything I can put here in order to offer useful advice.

In terms of your therapist, she is there to help, you shouldn't feel as though you coming to her for help is being a disappointment, in fact you could see it as a sign that you are willing to keep trying in spite of things being difficult. Don't give up yet, I am sure that there is something you can do, things take time to improve, and results might take a while to shine through; in any case, don't be worried about speaking to your therapist, she's there to help you, and unless you tell her what's going on she can't do that.

Clearly, there's a lot of stuff going on which is effecting you, but that isn't to say that it can't be overcome, but sometimes it is difficult to believe in thing improving.

Katiee · 13-03-2009, 12:43 AM

Sweetie, you won't be a disappointment to anyone if you told them how you feel. Things will get better hun. Talk to your therapist and see what happens before you make plans to end your life. Take care, hun, we're always here. xx