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One step closer...
I thought I had a solid friendship with someone but he continually keeps betraying me. What he's doing is hurting me in a way that no words could ever express and no cut could ever be deep enough. I've never felt this way in my life. What hurts the most is that he swore to me that I could trust him and foolishly I believed him. Why is the people you care about most turn out to be the ones who hurt you the most? I can't believe I fell for him. Stupidly I believed every word that came outta his mouth, but I should have know better!! I should have been smart enough to figure out that's she's more then just a "crazy ex". Now I'm so confused I don't know who to believe him or his "crazy ex"!! The most fucked up part is that what she's saying sounds more credible then what he's telling me. He tells me not to get upset but how could I not get upset when someone(probably him) is lying to me?? I guess I'm nothing more then a piece of ass and somewhere to live to him. I can't believe I actually thought that he cared about me. I guess after all I'm just a "fat retard" to him anyways!! I just don't know what to do or what to think anymore. I just wanna throw my hands up and say "I quit" because I don't know how much more of this I can take. It's really just bringing me one step closer to the edge of a cliff!! If I jumped I'm sure it wouldn't matter to him anyways because when it comes down to it I'll never be her. It's not a jealousy thing because believe me she's nothing to be jealous of. I don't think he has any clue how much he's truly hurting me and he probably doesn't even care!!
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4 years free!!!!!!!!
