Triggering (SI) - Giving in...

Mek · 12-03-2009, 06:23 AM

So I havent posted in a long ass time. I havent really had the need lately until now. I have done really well in my recovery my last si was in september and that is only considered a slip.

Lately I have been triggered. I want to give in. I want to feel the blood rushing out of my body. I want to really hurt myself. I feel like if i cut it will be unsafe... and yet I want to do it anyways.

Popple · 12-03-2009, 12:09 PM

Well done for going so long sweetie! You should be proud of yourself it shows how strong you are and you can do this.
Has anything happened to make you feel like this?
Please don't give up.
Take care of yourself
xx

Requiem · 12-03-2009, 12:19 PM

The way you are feeling is not uncommon honey. I second Miss Pixie, congrats for being SH free for so long. I know it's hard babe but you don't want to give up now, you have came so far.

Is there something that has triggered this all of a sudden? Can you locate the problem and isolate it?

Love,

Julie xxx

Moonlight Princess · 12-03-2009, 12:34 PM

*hugs*
How are you doing now?
As Julie and Katie have said if it would help to talk about what's triggering you then RYL is always here for you? Can you distract yourself? Maybe check out The Big Distraction List on the main site or the Fun and Distractions Forum?
Please take care of yourself and congratulations on you recovery so far!
Kiran
xx

Cazki · 12-03-2009, 03:30 PM

*Cuddles you* Its brilliant to hear that you havent self harmed in quite a while :) Well done!! Im very pleased for you. Im sorry that your feeling really triggered. Do you know what it is thats making you want to harm yourself? Whats happening for you? Do you want to talk to us some more about what it is thats causing you to feel this way? Stay strong dont give up, you can do this. Try to keep yourself distracted as much as you can. Your doing really well with your recovery.

Take care all the best Ian

squirrelspit · 12-03-2009, 04:43 PM

i think thats a natural stage during recovery.. that stage when your scars start to fade a bit, and you cant really remember how it feels any more.. its not un natural, but youve lasted so long, wouldnt you be pissed with yourself if you did it again?

You should come up with lots of ways to distract yourself, it might be that this feeling passes.

Look after yourself,

(also, i remember you =] )

x

Katiee · 12-03-2009, 06:34 PM

Hun, please don't give in. You can get through this. *HUGS* Is there anyone you could talk to about how you're feeling triggered lately. Try and keep yourself busy. Take care. xx

amy.lee.addict · 21-06-2009, 04:49 AM

Hang in there, alright. You're doing so well. You've been doing INCREDIBLE. Don't stop now. Keep going. Push through the darkness until you see light. Don't ever give up.

Mek · 30-06-2009, 03:34 AM

I know that there has to be a trigger, and yet im empty. I try to find the answer, searching real deep....and nothing. I have no idea whats triggered me. I know that I just want it to go away...and here I am fighting day by day...and its still here...im afraid that it isnt going to go away until I cut. I need to release the blood....atleast then i would be free