Triggering (SI) - i hate myself and evrything i do

x.ILY.x · 11-03-2009, 03:30 AM

iv been ok for 2 weeks, not cut once no 1 wants meand was actually feeling quite happy then today all it take is one comment from someone i dont even like n now i feel like shit, what is the point of me being alive here, my own parents never wantd me heer, my mum abandoned me n my dad denies im his, i must b really evil i poison everything n turn it all bad, i actually ruin peoples lives, i have nothing in life in 22 with no job n nowher to live, iv done nothing with my life im heading towards nothing, im always just going to be shit...i have no real friends, i thort had *S* but since i got ill agen 3 months ago shes rang me once, n that was to ask me to lend her money, i feel so alone and i feel so guilty when i tell my boyfriend how i feel because i no he feels responsible for me n he shouldnt he should b out having fun not looking after me, he dosnt evn argue with me anymore n i know its cus hes scared il go n top myself, he has to keep everything in n its all my fault..... everythings all my fault

nobody.but.me. · 11-03-2009, 03:57 AM

no it's not your fault. what your parents did was unfair. you have to prove to everyone that you are BETTER then this. you deserve so much better.. and you have the potential to help so many people with all you have been through. i was looking at that link and you have so many beautiful places to look at and that adorable dog! don't give up on everything. you CAN and WILL overcome this. pm me ANYTIME.

Shatterproof · 11-03-2009, 05:56 AM

Amen to the above.

None of this is your fault at all. You didn't deserve anything that has happened to you over the years. You can overcome this. Do you have professional support? If you do tell them how your feeling, let them help you. If you don't, get some.

Hun, sorry I haven't got much to say, I think the above says it all. My PM box is always open. xx

Katiee · 11-03-2009, 04:50 PM

Sweet, I'm sorry to hear you're feeling like this right now. *HUGS*
You've done so well by not cutting for two weeks. You will get through this. Is there anyone you could possibly get help/support from? Take care. x

fallen wings44 · 11-03-2009, 08:01 PM

none of this is your fault....two weeks is amazeing!!!! hold on to life.....
my pm box is always open.

x.ILY.x · 11-03-2009, 09:45 PM

i go to a group therapy thing every week bt i hate it i dnt talking infront of so many people so its not helpin i still feel so alone n like im trappd in a tunnel :(