Triggering (SI) - Bad times.

Moonlight Princess · 09-03-2009, 01:26 PM

I am so sorry to be asking for so much support nowadays without replying but things are pretty bad for me at the moment. My mother knows that I have started self harming again and have been contemplating suicide. I have been advised that I should repeat my firts year at uni again. I thought this was a good thing since I could take these six months to sort things out in my head. I have actually been more honest than ever in the last few days all with an aim of sorting myself out mentally. To hear as soon as I come home that I have brought shame on the family, that we're going to lie to my family and pretend I'm still at uni and that I'm not allowed out so nobody knows I'm home is not exactly what I needed to hear.

Neither is hearing that

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I can't survive at home for 6 months.

Katiee · 09-03-2009, 04:29 PM

Hun, I'm sorry you to hear that. Though I think it's good you've time to sort yourself out. I've taken loads of time off school to sort myself out and it's really helped.

Hmmm. I think that wasn't fair of your family to say that. Could you possibly talk to them about it? Take care, sweet. xx

Popple · 10-03-2009, 05:22 PM

*cuddles*
Im sorry you are struggling and I agree I think using this six months to sort yourself out is a good thing because it means next time round you might be more able to work hard and do better. Its good that you are being honest with people. Is there anyone you could get to talk to your family to explain whats happening and what they are saying isn't going to help you. Taking time out does not mean you have brought shame on your family and that is quite an old fashioned view so please please don't believe it because you are worth more and you need to focus on yourself now and get yourself into a better place.
Take care of yourself
xx

guiltyinnocence · 13-03-2009, 03:39 AM

*hugs*
im sorry things arent good. but i think taking a few months out is a wise decision. it means you can sort your head out and get things sorted and maybe try uni again next year. you and your health is what matters most, you can always redo uni but u cant redo your health and your wellbeing (im hoping thats made partial sense)
your mum said a harsh thing, but shes far from being right. you have not brought shame to your family, you've done the opposite really, you've shown that you know things are getting too much and you need some time to sort things out
im always around if you ever want to pm me
hope youre okay *huggles*
xxxx