hey
well iv wrote this letter to my daddy... but im worried about his reaction. so yeah advice would be good on whether it reads ok etc
(the she in the letter is daddy's girlfriend)
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[FONT='Verdana','sans-serif']Dear Daddy,
This is in response to a comment you made this afternoon:
"I havn't thumped you in awhile, you look like you deserve another one"
I would just like to say to you that you can do whatever you want to hurt
me because i don't care anymore.[/font]
[FONT='Verdana','sans-serif']we went out for a "family meal" what family?..your meal was ruined..you complained..screamed at the girl behind the counter...it was so embarrasing...we went home..you yelled at me again...something about homework..not respecting..no one listens to you apparently..im told how little i mean...you throws more insults at me...tell me you needs to treat me respect..punch me in the stomach..you goes to walk behind me as i stumble and you trips..face plants right into a chair..get up..tell me how much you hates me..pack your bags and walk out on us..she comes in..starts yelling and swearing..what have i done..it was my fault...i go to my room...i find the blade...[/font]
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[FONT='Verdana','sans-serif']It was your birthday so we had to do everything you said to avoid the conflict..not that it mattered..
I didn't really feel like being out, but i still went along. I couldn't really force myself to want to celebrate the birthday of the one person who can take me to the worst place..but what could i do. The night was pretty terrible, you complained about the meal and was rude to the staff. you yelled at me in front of them and i just wanted to go home. When we finally did go..i locked myself in my room when we got home and tried to sleep the night away. I thought it would be over after that but no, sunday was much worse.
We had huge fights, all three of us. It was really bad, some things that had been supressed for a long time were let out and some much pent up anger was released. Unfortunately, i got some new bruises that day, which are kinda big but nothing too bad. There are some pretty colours though. I think i really have to stop getting in the way. Sticking up for myself is definately not the way to go. But i don't want to sit back and take it all either when i have done nothing wrong.
So yeah, things got pretty bad ok, really bad and i don't know if he meant half the stuff..but i just couldn't take it...so i dug out a blade and began crossing out the word "worthless" on my wrist...[/font]
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[FONT='Verdana','sans-serif']lets see if you care shall we? [/font]
I can't really give more than hopes things turn out alright for you.
Could you show the letter to other people, whether or not you end up showing it to your dad, or ask for some kind of help from outside? Even if it's really subtle, like you're having a bit of a bad time at home and need to vent a little.
No matter what he says, you do NOT deserve it, and you're NOT worthless!
We're here and more than willing to support you, so try and take care x
This is a gift, it comes with a price
Who is the lamb and who is the knife
Midas is king and he holds me so tight
And turns me to gold in the sunlight
And in the spring I shed my skin
And it blows away with the changing wind
The waters turn from blue to red
As towards the sky I offer it
Hun,
It's really brave of you to write this. I know it's hard writing about it. *HUGS*.
I'm sorry you've had to go through all that. Does anyone know how bad things are?, If not, please, please tell someone who can help you. It's not fair he treats you like that. You shouldn't have to go through that, no one should. Take care, sweet. xxx
i'm so sorry this has happened to you.
i agree with Nicholas that you could show this letter to someone and let them know how bad things are, you are NOT worthless and you don't deserve any of this.
isobel xx
Shoot for the moon, even if you miss you land among the stars
Hun know havnt been on this site long but please take wot they are saying n tell someone but dont forget we all here as well my pm box is open if you want I know opening up n taking that first step is the hardest I have taken it a few times if you want read my thread its called What makes me Me
