Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Please say it's gonna be alright?

Katiee · 08-03-2009, 12:49 AM

Hiiii,
I don't know what's wrong. It's just sorta come over me.. I feel like everything's falling apart... but it's not. Everything's going great, everything's awesome, everything is really easy for me at the moment. I just feel.... I don't know. =/ like everything isn't OK, but honestly it is. I feel so worried and I'm shaking. I have an urge to cut, but at the same time I don't. I feel like I need to kill myself, but at the same time I don't. God, what the hell is wrong with me?! AHHH! THIS IS SOOOO CONFUSING!

Just need some reassurance, I guess.

xx

angel of despair · 08-03-2009, 12:51 AM

heya hunni, iv got feelings similer to those in thet past. they do pass. things will be ok. xx

Bleeding Angel · 08-03-2009, 12:53 AM

Sometimes when things are going good it feels wrong, you worry about feeling bad and you cant shake that feeling. Its only natural i guess. You need to stop worrying and enjoy life, enjoy feeling good.

Try to distract yourself with the self harm, you can get through this without it :)

ksdfjhlksajf · 08-03-2009, 01:06 AM

I understand what you're saying completely.... it's happened to me many times.

I don't have any great advice, but to try and distract yourself. Things are going to be okay.

Take care,
Amy

teenytineytori · 08-03-2009, 03:41 AM

Things will be ok. When that happens to me it is because of all the bad stuff that has happened in my life before so i think well something bad must happen now this is going too well and then i start stressing and miss out on the good stuff going on in the present.

Try to make a list of the good things and what you are thankful for and refer to that. And try some deep breathing. It will be ok.

Wonderland. · 09-03-2009, 03:34 AM

Hun it might be because this feeling to you is unknown and is out of your comfort zone as you haven't feel so good in a while. Try and let the feeling carry on and hopefully you will feel more comfortable with it and feel that being okay is normal and is a good feeling.

Amy x

Isoverity · 09-03-2009, 04:08 AM

Hey we all have a dark side that tries to pull us down into doubt and despair when its not wise. In reverse, it will also tell us we have nothing to worry about when in fact we might lol. The best thing to do is watch those thoughts
and ideas as if from a distance and dont react to them and get upset. That's like implanting the suggestion hypnotically.