Triggering (SI/ED) - Step by step *Positive recovery post*

[Ranger Fairy]

I first put this in my journal but felt like I wanted to share



I think I am really am getting to grips/understand the idea, that recovery is a slow process, one step at a time. Its not going to happen over night and it is going to take a very long time, BUT I can actually see that it is starting to happen over time. I think back to this time last year I was in a spealist locked hospital, being forced meds, refusing food and water and trying to hurt myself at every possible window of oppurtunity. Now I've been out of hospital the longest I've EVER mangaged since I was 15 (first addmission), I am trying with thearpy, I've developed new hobbies that I wouldn't have even considered before, I have more of a routine i.e go to an art group and medical appoiments, in the last 8 months I've only SI twice!, I've started going back to education and going really well with it AND I'm seriously considering going to college next year to do a part time dipolma aquavitant to 3 a-levels, I AM inpendant whatever my family says(well alot more than I used to be anyway) I can travel alone, make phone calls of any type, take care of my own finances, I'm in a long term reletionship and coping very well with it, I AM having days where I'm really enjoying life and finally I am having some days (even if there few and far in between ) where I'm able to appect the person I am, to able to be OK with being me.

****in hell looking at that things really are ****in loads better, I just havn't been able to see it as its slow step by step. But it really is there and I CAN see it. !!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM proud of myself

[guiltyinnocence]

you're post really made me smile, and gives me some hope
its good you've taken a step back to look at the whole picture and seen how far you have come
you seemed to overcome alot, and you deserve to be proud of yourself!
well done you
*huggles*
xxxx

[surprising mystery]

Firstly, I love you SO much! :D

I cant tell you how proud I am but I'lll try...

Your the best inspiration anyone could be with. I know the hard times are ****ing hard, I see it, and I feel it too but you always find a way through, and on reflection I think you learn a lot and use it in a positive way to make the future easier. Ive never met anyone, apart from a certain someone you probably know already that I feel is honestly 100% amazing. Yes I am biased, but I dont care, Im biased because your wonderful and loving and kind and special and unique, and I see it every day with my own eyes.

Be proud, and never forget how far you have come in just a short space of time, if this can be done in months, think what years can achieve. Recovery may be slow, but its permanant, and it will give you everything you want in the end.

*kisses you* love, me

[Katiee]

Aww, hun. That's amazing. Well done. :) xxx

[sherlock holmes]

That's fantastic!

[Popple]

Thats really good to read love =)
Well done!
xx

[Ranger Fairy]

Thx 4 ur support and replies xxx

Sorry, I'm not being bigheaded but I'm bumping as I'm hoping this can give others hope that its possible even if its only 1 more person and its a tiny bit.

xxxsorry