Triggering (SI) - urges....again...ugh.

[cryingcrimson]

Ok, so it's been awhile since I've posted on here, I've been doing pretty well, i mean i slipped up several weeks ago, but I've finally accepted that slip-ups happen. But lately, i have been triggered like no one's business. That's all I can think of at this point. I don't want to slip-up again. I don't understand why all of a sudden these urges have come back. I've been trying to get back to God lately, and it almost seems like since I've been praying and talking to Him more the urges get so much worse. I'm not really sure to do, 'cause it seems every time i have a free moment by myself, my thoughts wander to what it would feel like, and what not. I know where my things are...i'm just. UGH. I haven't told anyone about being triggered, not sure what they would say, not even my best friend knows i've been fighting against the evil of my brain. Little advice?
Thanks guys!

*i wasn't sure this was triggering, or would be. but i put the label on just in case...better safe than sorry.

[Megynn]

when i was like that i chuck mine in a river, so that id never get them back. and tell maybe even one of your friends? just so if something does happen they can be there because they know whats going on...

[Katiee]

Heyy
You're doing great so far! :)
Keep yourself busy as much as you can. Try and think about how well you've done. :) Urges they can come and go but you can get through them. They won't stay forever. Don't let the urges win you over. Maybe talk to someone?I know when I get triggered I have one idea why. So when I talk to someone about things I've been thinking about. I find out why I was tiggered and things tend to make alot more sense or even write things down, if you don't want/feel like talking to someone? :) Stay safe, sweeet. xx

[[Awakening]]

God wants you and he wont let go of you. keep praying! i find listening to worship music can really help. Try watching this, it's amazing [ame="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9_M0H5nrY8E"]YouTube - Lighthouse Everything Skit[/ame]
i hope the link works, if it doesnt try searching lighthouse everything skit in youtube.com
I'm praying for u x

[cryingcrimson]

Thanks for the advice everyone! The urges have subsided some, but I've been so stressed due to some stupid roommate drama, ugh. I want to quit smoking, but i'm afraid I'll fall back to SI to deal with stress. :/ Yummy, the video is amazing, and each time I watch it, it makes me cry, thanks. I hope everyone that looks at this thread watches it. I'm also going on a trip with two of my friends next week (for spring break) and at some point I do believe that we will be going swimming, well my female friend knows about my scars, but my guy friend doesn't, and I'm hoping it won't get awkward.
Happy friday everyone! =)