i know this is a bit late in the day, but i told myself i wasn't going to make this post. but i dont know, i guess i could really do with some reassuring right now.
im so so scared, i have CAMHS tomorrow at 9:30.
i really really want this to work, i want to get better and move on in my life, but i know to do this i am gong to have to be honest with whoever i see.
the thing is i hear this voice and she screams at me not to talk about these things, and it is so so hard to ignore and i dont want to end up going in there and not saying anything.
does anyone have and advise or strategies they use to block out or ignore the voices?
i know this is my chance, and if i blow this then i will be so angry at myself, but if i talk then i know she will be so angry at me.
it is going to be so hard, but i am determined to do it, i was just wondering if any of you had any wise words that might help me.
xxx
'the pain you feel is real,
you're not asleep,
but its a nightmare,
but you cant wake up anytime.'
i just wrote you a note on msn :) i wanted to wish you luck and be brave. i will be thinking about you and want to know all about it when you have finished.
if you can get to a computer email me cos i will be able to get it in the afternoon or text whatever.
be brave l'il one you can do this and you will be ready to go to college and start you new life!!
sorry dont really have any advice but i love you and you can do this and beat those nasty voices!!!
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this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!!
hey, maybe could you make a list of things you want to tell them? i know i always kinda freeze in that sorta situation so i miss so much stuff out so they think im fine. if you need to, tell the CAMHS person about the voice telling you not to talk.
Good luck <3
I went to camhs. I was so nervous about it, and not sure i was ready, i didn't know what to expect and spoke to no one about it- I had not found internet forums then lol!!! but I write things down for my counsellor now, and hand it to her as soon as i get in and then we can talk through things!! things have to be done at your pace so be easy one yourself, but try and be honest!!
good luck
lucy
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Last edited by doing-good : 26-02-2009 at 12:18 AM.
Reason: forgot my name! :P
Good luck tomorrow, I don't really have any advice but maybe if you manage to say at the start that you want to talk, or that you have something to tell them it will mean that even if you stop talking later they will prompt you and it'll make it easier to get it out. Good luck, I'll be thinking of you at 9:30! xx
it went ok i guess.
i managed to tell him about the voice and stuff, when my mum wasnt in the room,
but when my mum was in the room at the start and end i wouldnt say anything, i just cant in front of her.
so on the way back she shouted at me and was crying and so i shouted back and now i feel so bad cuz its all my fault.
'the pain you feel is real,
you're not asleep,
but its a nightmare,
but you cant wake up anytime.'
nothings your fault hun.
Your mum will come to understand in time, im sure now your with camhs they will help her as well as you deal with what your going through.
Glad it went ok
take care
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After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i've cried my last, there'll be beauty from pain
I'm glad that you managed to share some of what you are going through, I understand how difficult it can be to share things when your parents are around. I hope that you find this helpful and that your Mum is more supportive of you. Take care.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Well done for going and telling him whats going on for you. That must have been really difficult but recognising you need help and feeling determined to give it your all is really positive.
Your mum will be feeling upset because accepting your child is having a hard time must be really difficult. I know my mum felt like it was her fault at first but it is neither hers nor your fault, you are ill and you need help and support. In time, she will understand it.
Take care xx
im so angry at her.
i was happy that i managed to tell him some stuff, even if i didnt tell him everything, its a start.
then my mum had a go at me for not talking when i did. and i made her cry. it kills me to see her upset. even though im angry at her.
and i have a damn voice telling me i did the wrong thing.
and i feel so crap i want to end it now.
'the pain you feel is real,
you're not asleep,
but its a nightmare,
but you cant wake up anytime.'
Sweetie,
The voice is lying to you- you did the right thing. You deserve to get help and you've done so well to make that move and you deserve to be proud of yourself for making a start towards making things better.
YOU didnt make your mum cry, your mum is upset and that is her problem, not yours. Sometimes you need to put yourself first and put your own wellbeing in front of hers.
Please look after yourself hun,
xx
as i said baby, you have done sooooo well! i am really really proud of you!!
you just have to give it a try. if it helps you could get the bloke to tell your mum to ssshh a bit cos altho im not even suggesting that he tell her ANYTHING about your appointments, but maybe you could ask him to say that you are telling him things and that it will take time for you to fully trust him but she needs to be patient with you and remember this is mega hard to do and that she could ease off you a bit.
speak to you soon chick pea xxx huggles xxx
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!!
i dont feel like i did the right thing, but i guess i know deep down i did.
im so angry and i cant work out why i am SO angry.
and i think it is my fault my mum is upset and i dunno i cant seem to think that i shouldnt worry and it is her problem cuz without me she wouldnt be upset. if that makes sense.
i dunno.
sorry for being a pain and thank you all so much =]
'the pain you feel is real,
you're not asleep,
but its a nightmare,
but you cant wake up anytime.'
but when my mum was in the room at the start and end i wouldnt say anything, i just cant in front of her.
When I was in CAMHS having my Mum in the appt was the worst thing. I used to call my psych when I was coming from school before the appt to ask her if I could see her alone.
I am glad that you told them what you wanted to.
The parents thing is the most annoying part of CAMHS, which is why I am partially relieved that I'm with adult services now.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
if you don't mind me asking how old are you?
cos i started camhs when i was 17, but i think if you're over 16 you don't need your parents!?!? I could be wrong. My camhs counsellor always wanted me to bring mum a long but I always said no. Maybe call them and ask!?
GLad you went though hun, its a big step! Well done!
im 16, and i can see them alone, i just wish mum didnt come at all, but i have no other way of getting there cuz no buses go that way or anything.
i guess ill just have to put up with it.
i spoke to someone at school today and she was saying how its not my fault its my mums, and although i still blame myself i feel a bit better about it all.
thank you all so so much =]
xxx
'the pain you feel is real,
you're not asleep,
but its a nightmare,
but you cant wake up anytime.'
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!! 
