In case you guys were wondering where I've been for the past five days, I was sent to the Hospital because I wrote in my journal that I was going to kill myself (and I WAS going to as well). My mom read it and I got sent to the saferoom where I had to have a guard, and bla bla bla.
Point is, I'm back and still feel like **** and NOW in a few weeks time I'm gonna go to this special clinic for depressed teenagers like me (It's supposed to be nice from what I've heard). Gahh, being in the hospital was extremely stressful and now I'm not allowed to be alone anymore.
And yes, I know it's not my parents fault, they were just doing what was best for me. I'm not even mad at them. It was my fault. I know that, no one needs to tell me.
I'm just exhausted.
And really really really stressed out right now.
And I still feel like ****
You tell me everything's all right
As though it's something you've been through
You think this torment is romantic
Well it's not, except to you
*Cuddles you* Im really for the way that your feeling and that your having such a tough time. I really hope that things get better for you soon. Do you want to talk to us about things some more? Im thinking of you. I wish you all the best for when you go in the unit. Please stay safe.
I'm sorry to hear that you had to go through that. I hope that the clinic will help.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Sending you loads of *hugs*.
I'm sorry things are so difficult for you at the molment.
The clinic sounds like it could be a really positive outcome from a shitty situation though. I made so many friends through therapy and it feels good to meet other people who are having similar experiences to you. Maybe give it a chance?
Take care, feel free to PM me if you want a chat.
xx
Thanks so much. It's nice to know I have support.
I feel so miserable right now that I just want to cut again but I can't because if I do, I'll get sent back to the hospital and my parents have been instructed to take me back if they suspect that I'm not being honest with them. I just gahhh. It's so frustrating. I know it's all in my best interest but I just wish I could tell everyone to go f*** themselves, even though I know they all mean well.
I hate this.
I wish I didn't have depression.
I'm sorry if I'm coming across as whiny, I'm just feeling really down right now.
And it doesn't help that I got food poisoning from the hospital food.
You tell me everything's all right
As though it's something you've been through
You think this torment is romantic
Well it's not, except to you
Hi, I know i don't know you or anything. But I totally remember what it was like being a teenager and suicidally depressed. I really hope this place for depressed teenagers helps you. I know when I was young being in the psych hospital for an extended period of time and in partial hospitalization after really helped me. good luck.
*hugs*
Try to avoid going back to hospital, as hospital can actually make people more distressed.
Last edited by Steel Maiden : 25-02-2009 at 05:11 PM.
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PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
