Triggering (SI/Abuse) - badtimes

riley. · 23-02-2009, 03:15 AM

not coping with past stuff isn't helped by the reinforcement of it...here...now.

having a **** time just now, but have to put on the happy face. hide it all away. the past is in the past. but i can't live like that even if i wanted to.. not through being defeatist, merely, due to the lack of trials in brain transplantation, i've got little hope of freeing myself.
but you know what- who cares anyway

airwolf282 · 23-02-2009, 04:31 AM

Becci,

Sorry you are fealing so bad *hugs*

Not sure what exactly in your past is bothering you, but please know that it can't hurt you anymore. If you want to talk about it feel free to PM me or just keep us posted. I don't know what it is that makes you feel that you can't escape but I'm always willing to listen if you need to talk ok?

And many people care. There are thousands here. I care.

Please be kind to yourself, you deserve a break.

Nathan xo

one_step_closer · 23-02-2009, 10:57 AM

Is there anyone that you feel you don't have to hide this from? Sometimes facing the memories and feelings as you are having them is more helpful than hiding them. I know that it's hard to have the past affecting your present life, I hope that you can find a way to make it have less of an impact. I'm here if you need anything. Take care.

rockaroni · 23-02-2009, 11:55 PM

Becci my love, I'm not sure what to say. But I care. I always cared because you're a wonderful person. You don't always have to put on the happy face, people who love you will always love you. And when things are tough, you know there's always room for you here.
Katie x

ThinkingofRecovery · 23-02-2009, 11:59 PM

Hey, I know we don't know each other (gosh too many "knows" and surely, soon to change) but is there anyone you can be just you in front of. I put on a mask and pretend things from my past don't bother me everyday but I am able to drop that mask when my cpn visits. Is there someone you could perhaps let know that things aren't going to great just now and that you need some care and attention?

btw I care and many people on here care!

*hugs*

riley. · 24-02-2009, 10:59 PM

feeling super scared really. don't really know how to explain things really. doesn't make much sense
thanks for thinkng of me. not much point in trying to explain myself because its all muddled.
thnaks though