let me start off with a RAHHHHHHHHHHH then another RAHHHHHHHHH.
I have been in the thick of stuff at the moment and can I just say that it all SUCKS.
Stewarts mum overdosed on Wednesday night since then I have been the responsible member of the Mrs Stew clan. I was the one who visited her in hospital on Thursday. I was the one who collected her on Friday and I am the one who looked after her all weekend. I am the one who is the most fragile Im the one who has taken some of her tablets just so I can I dont even know why I have taken them. (Just so you know its from her stock that she has been stashing just some sleepers and valium).
I'm so tired and I have had to leave her as I go on honeymoon on SUNDAY.
I took Ike to the vet and he needs a biopsy on Thursday - I just there is too much happening and I dont know if I can hold on.
Stewart wants me to well phone his dad and ask him to come home (he works away) and look after his mum - he reckons he will listen to me as I have been there but I dont think its my responsibility.
I cant do that its not my job. Please someone swap lives with me for the next few days - jjust so I can think straight
nat, i am so sorry that everything is so hard for you at the moment but this bad patch will pass, i promise you.
could you possibly speak to stew about how you are feeling? talking about it may help you.*cuddles*i wish i had something more useful to say to help but i will be here for you if you need to chat by PM or in chat.
It probably wasnt the best of ideas to take her meds, did you take too many? if you start to feel ill please get help.
Nat,
Hugs you,
Youve been amazing in the fact that youve coped with so many things. How wonderfull that you managed to visit stewarts mum in hospital,and collected her too. And also looking after her over the weekened, your truly a caring person.
I m sorry you are the one whos the most fragile right now, taking on these caring things must have been hard for you. You need others to care about and support you right now.
Please dont take those tablets you have, please get more support for yourself right now, Especially if your going away on hooneymoon on sunday congratulations by the way. I hope to stewart will take away some of the responsability such as he rings his dad. You need to have some time to yourself .
maybe go and see your gp. Ryl is here for you please keep posting and reaching out.
take care Nat
Dave
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Oh nat, that is alot! I hope you have been able to get away and enjoy your time..i forget how long you are gone for??
Pls do tell Stew that you cant call his dad..you're right..it isnt really your 'job'. Just tell him you have too much to handle right now and you just cant.
Let us know when you get back...
thinking of you
romp
i agree with romp, it's not your job. say you are struggling to deal with it all as it is, without extra stress. *hugs* hope you have a fabby time on honeymoon and that Ike is ok. mand x
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They see you as the "one" that can relate because to them its just so alien. However as stated its not your problem. Quite frankly i think youve done enough. Help Stew with what he can say to his father by all means but dont make the call. Perhaps help him make notes or something but this is where your responsibility ends.
You have a first and foremost responsibility to yourself. Otherwise theres gonna be another Mrs Stew in Hospital and whos gonna come rescue her?
Be safe
Love
Matthew xxx
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Thanks guys - Im still so delicate am crying while I type this. Stewarts dad has come back and I suppose the pressure is off me - now if this is the case why do I not feel any better?
I am scared of myself right now but have to stay strong - honeymoon on Monday.
Thanks again
xxxx
When people put you under that much pressure, it takes a while for you to feel it go away, especially if you're been under it for a while. In my opinion, it's not fair on you that this was all dumped on you, and uber-kudos to you for putting up with it all and coping so well.
Hopefully, your honeymoon goes ok, enjoy some time in the sun (or rain), and try to leave the problems you can at the airport.
