Triggering (Suicide) - i cant take being me anymore

[chkymnky]

im such a useless piece of ****!
i mess up EVERYTHING, i dont deserve anything!
i remember how easy it was last time to take all my AD's and im really wanting to do it again...properly this time!
i let everyone down i hate being me!!! i hate me!!!!

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Can you speak to your dr or do you have a counsellor or cpn that you can talk to? Maybe the ADs aren't working as well as they should be at the moment. Please don't od on them. If you feel that unsafe, can you give them to someone to look after them for you? How do you feel you have let everyone down and messed up?

[airwolf282]

*hugs*

You're not a worthless piece of **** and I'm sure you don't mess up everything.

Please don't take all those pills honey. If you think you can't stop yourself then go to A&E or your nearest mental health centre. You might want to try calling one of those hotlines like lifeline if there's nobody to talk to. Just getting things out can sometimes help. RYL is also a great distraction if you need to vent those horrible thoughts. Everything might seem hopeless right now but these feelings will pass eventually. Please don't be afraid to reach out for help when you need it.

Stay safe hun,


Nathan

[chkymnky]

i dont have a counsellor or a cpn and will take about 4 weeks to get to see my own doc.
i just always seem to do stupid things that lets myself down and my friends.

[chkymnky]

maybe i should just go back into my shell, and keep myself to myself whats the point in having friends wen all i do is cause them grief and disapointment. iwant to tell a close friend of mine how im feeling but i think she will end up sick of being friends with a raving loonatic!

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Hey hun, I'm sure you don't keep letting them down.

Re your dr, you should call today and tell them it's an emergency because it is and you should be able to get an appt today or tomorrow. Please give it a go.

If you can't get an appt with your dr and are thinking you are going to follow through on your feelings of od, you need to go to A&E where you can be assessed by the on duty psych or psych liaison team.

It might be that your friend already suspects something is wrong, I know my housemate always can tell when things are particularly difficult. I don't think you should use her/him as your only source of support though as you need to find some professional support.

Please try and call for an emergency appt at your dr.

Take care!

[~Grace~]

Please try to get an earlier appointment with your doc....it really sounds like you could do with someone to talk to xx

[ThinkingofRecovery]

How are you doing today? Did you manage to arrange an earlier appt with your dr?
*hugs*

[Sigma]

Hope you're OK... I'm sure your friends love you no matter what, but it can be good to have professional help as well - can your Dr refer you for some support?

[chkymnky]

thank u all for the support u gave me, i didnt see doc but gave all my meds to a friend and had good chat. i feel a lot more positive now. xxxxx

[ThinkingofRecovery]

I'm glad you are feeling better but think you could do with seeing your dr soon though so you can discuss this with him/her.

[chkymnky]

i will do xx

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Glad to hear. Take care!