i dont know wat to do

im bad again actually i didnt get ne better from the last time they changed me bk onto my old meds mitrazapine (spelling) becuase i wasnt sleeping now im sleeping like rediculous amounts so i went bk to my cpn on friday and he wants me to see the psychiatrist again but i cnt till tuesday which mean i miss 2 more days of uni which at the mo doesnt make 2 much difference has i havent been going to my lectures neway. my netball captain at uni friend killed themselves bout a week ago. it really triggered me again ive been sh loads but i cant do this nemore it takes too much effort. everything i look at or touch makes me think how i cud kill myself with it. wen i saw my cpn on friday we were talking bout it and my last appointment i had with my shrink they had to move rooms and it was into the hospital wing and it really freaked me out he apologised for that and said they dont have ne plans for me to go in. i dont know if that is bad or good. he said they wouldnt do nething unless i said i had plans but i told him i wouldnt tell him plans neway wat wud be the point in that. i really dont know wat to do someone tell me wat to do please im desperate.

[wildly insane]

Keep fighting hun and if you feel that bad then please tell someone, hugs, Hannah

wats the point

[airwolf282]

*hugs you*

Cheryl,

I am so sorry that you are having a tough time at the moment, especially with the tragic loss of your friend. I found that med to be very bad for me. I slept way too much on it and had no energy. Perhaps you should tell the doc all about this and look at the option of changing meds. That med is a tetracyclic antidepressant, tetracyclics and tricyclics generally cause sedation and as a side affect daytime sleepiness. Please go to your appointment and be firm with the doctor. Tell them how you are really feeling. Also talk to your uni's counsellor, they may be able to help you by liasing with lecturers about why you can't attend right now. Sorry if I'm off the mark, I never went to uni only tech college. To answer your question THE POINT IS that you can lead a normal, happy life free of depression. It may take hard work and a lot of fighting but it can be done. I'm not saying that you will be cured instantly if they give you a new med, what I am saying is that someday these feelings will only be a thing of the past. Just be firm and strong and don't be afraid to ask for help, you deserve it.

Please stay safe.


Nathan xox

it wasnt even my friend it was a friend of a friend. i changed my meds once then i cudnt sleep at all. 7 years getting help it takes the piss there isnt much point in hoping for a miracle im sick of fighting. i cnt promise nething. thank u for replying i just havent gt the will power or strength to keep fighting xxx

[airwolf282]

Awwww I'm so sorry that life seems so crappy right now If you ever need to vent or just want a listening ear you can PM me anytime. I have been getting treatment for over 7 years too so I know it can be really frustrating and at times you just feel like giving up. I can tell you these feelings don't stay forever though. Please keep safe.

Nathan xo

thank u. i have had enough of fighting ive got an appointment with my cpn n shrinnk 2moz dont wanna go wanna just disapear

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Please go to your appt hun, they might be able to help eg different meds or more support.
Take care!

wats the point nothing is ever gonna change. i just wanna curl up and die sorry im being silly noone needs me moaning

[Tears of Solitude]

Honey thats what we are here for to listen. 7 years is a long time to keep fighting, but it shows up how determined you are and have been.

Dont give up now honey, keep posting it might help

Jade xxx

this is goodbye im sorry i cant cope nemore xxxxxxxxxx