I cant really say what the bad news was today, Im sorry. < I wish I could >
Ive just had a row with my teenage daughter because I am loosing contact with her and she just wants to be with friends.
I understand there there should be friends but I feel that all I am wanted for is for money or anything else. Im not a bank, I want to be treated like a person.
In the end we have made up and she said she will spend some time with me tomorrow. I need to get to know her, she seems so distant.
It doesnt help having this mental illness and paranoia. I hate myself, I was fine before I had my children, then I had a breakdown and the cracks started to appear and they have got wider and wider.
My husband < and their dad > backed me up saying it does seem that way sometimes, so at least I wasnt totally out of order.
Now I feel guilty for speaking out and I just want to harm. Hubby wont let me, but I must do it because how else do I cope. ??????
Last edited by Tears of Solitude : 13-02-2009 at 12:10 AM.
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I'm sorry to hear that you are having trouble at home. You know how to contact me if you ever need to talk. I'm always here for you babe. Raising teenagers is undoubtably one of the hardest times for any parent and to be doing that with a mental illness is extremely difficult. You are so awesome for everything you have achieved in your life. I really respect you and eveything you have done. You are a dear dear friend and I love you so much. Please don't harm yourself, can you distract yourself somehow? What about the visitor you have this weekend? You could try flicking your wrist with an elastic band, it's a good substitute for SI and is a hell of a lot safer. Please don't hate yourself either......you're one of the most wonderful people I have ever known and I know Romp will agree with me.
*Big hugs Jade*
Love Nathan
"For those who fight for it, life has a flavour the sheltered never know"
-Pinned to a noticeboard at the US Command Post in Khe Sanh.
I understand. Im a mum to two teenagers and it is so hard, especially when also confronted with mental illness too. I dont know about your daughter, but mine like to push the boundaries as far as they can and being with their friends is far more 'cool' than being with their parents. But I guess, it doesnt mean that they love us any less, although it can feel that way.
How did your time with your daughter go today? Hope the situation has eased and things are better between you both now.
Hey jade
Just wanted to leave you some HUGs and I'm sorry things are hard for you right now
Hope you had a nice time with your daughter
Stay safe hunny xxx
"Because you don't notice the light without a bit of shadow. Everything has both dark and light. You have to play with it until you get it exactly right."
Glad you are feeling a bit brighter today.
I guess sometimes the paranoia can make things seems worse, does for me anyway. But at least you can see it for what it is and hopefully recognize when that's what is making things worse.
Thinking of you and sending more *huggles* xxx
"Because you don't notice the light without a bit of shadow. Everything has both dark and light. You have to play with it until you get it exactly right."
