That's all...gosh I'm so tired of it...I'm tired of feeling lousy...I'm tired of having to function when all I want to do is stay home and hide... I'm tired of having to plaster a smile on my face at work and make everyone think it's all ok...8 1/2 hours dealing with people when you feel like this... I'm tired of counselor appointments and drs appointments and everything...I'm tired of being tired...ugh, I wish it would all just end :s
Tear
Sorry for spilling...thanks all.
*Job 3:20-26* (see signiture)
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
Hey sorry you feel like sh*t right now
Hugs you,
you are such a caring person, you certainly support so many in ryl and vets, as well as myself. It sounds like you need some time for yourself right now.
i hear you about being tired of all the counsellor appointments, and drs appointments. It can be too much at times, please hold on and try and regain some strength. If you can take time off work, and its something you want to do it may take some pressure off you .
please take care of yourself
Hugs
Dave
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I can relate to that hunni.
But stick with it.
You have just been started on meds yeah?
Let them kick in.
At first they keep a close eye on you, but this does get less in time.
Your doing well. Your on the right track to getting help now. Just stick with it for a while longer.
Location: Denial Tent, Virtual Psych Ward Campsite, MA, USA
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honey i know exactly how you feel (okay well maybe not exactly but i really do think that you're like my ryl twin or something because whenever we talk i always end up thinking "omgosh this is so weird we are like going through the same thing right now almost")
anyway i know it's rough having to always pretend to be happy
i was wondering on the plane today that if i actually felt real happy, would i recognise the feeling anymore? because it has been so long? but it is so important for us to keep going and keep hanging in because i think that things are getting better, slowly but surely, and it is just hard to see when you are in the midst of it but it is improving and if we hang in we will make it to the other side
at least that is what i tell myself haha
okay i should stop writing posts when i am jetlagged and havent slept in twentysomething hours
Just keep holding on. Try to get some sleep and make sure you're not getting dehydrated. Sometimes even just the heat outside can make you feel lousy. I know its definately more then that but make sure to take care of yourself. I understand the whole work problem though. One day when I felt like that my GM (a horrible lady) told me to go in the back because I was depressing the customers. It'll be ok though. Just keep going.
Thanks all...got ANOTHER drs appointment tomorrow...guess it's only the second one since I started meds (including the one that I was perscribed them) but...it's always someone new, someone else who didn't know before but knows now. Different nurse, different dr, tomorrow I think I'm seeing some PA or whatever...anyway it's someone new again, someone else to tell, someone else who wants to hear me say the words 'I'm depressed' or ask me about my cutting...I guess it's a good thing I can tune most of it out without being noticed (well, my counselor can tell but I guess that's his job).
Y'all are great. FYI, I'd like to apologise to those of you that may read this as I'm probably not gonna be that much help supporting wise at the moment. Sorry.
*wanders over to the virtual psych ward*
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
