Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Im feel so drained Od trigger as will

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Thought i was getting better but im not im going backwards just now

Im so tired and my motovation lvls are getting lower and lower every day even walking up a hill my pup had to drag me up

I wrote a letter to my course tutor but i couldnt hand it to her today.

Some of the class had to name the bones today and she had to pick me but i got some wrong. I felt like so down then she did a class test for fun and i got 5 wrong and she was like Oh dear you need to do yer homework

I felt so down and i wanted to take a OD but i didnt have anything on me

One of my class mates knows about it and she offered to hand the letter over to the course tutor today but i didnt take the offer up

Just now i feel so drained and its like a part of me wents to give up completely

Only thing which keeps me going is my puppy whos always happy to see me

Dont know what to do now

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Sorry to add this sorry i had to be a pain again

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Don't be sorry, if you can give your letter to the course tutor it would be a really good idea and very strong of you, it takes guts to do but will be worth it I'm sure. Keep thinking about your puppy and the joy it gives you, how faithful and happy to see you it is, not just to keep you going but to enjoy. take care, hugs, Hannah

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Yeah i did ask my class mate to hand it over today but after i gave a letter i was like i be in my car. I totally freak out about it. My course tutor said that she was going to read it in private and have a word with me tomorrow but if i dont want to talk about it i dont have to.

I felt worse today and i bought some paimkillers today because my head was sore and when i was talking the right dose i wanted to take them all but i said to my mate remind me to give you them which she did.

My puppy is always trying his best to cheer me up like doing his mad half n hour everytime im around him

Do they know something is wrong