ugh I don't even know what to put here

[dizzietheimperfect1]

I'm so frustrated!! I was doing so well. Three months clean and now all I want is to cut. I don't know how much longer I can go without it. I've already got my razor right next to me. I try to not think about it but the more i try not to think about it the more I think about it. Does that make any sense at all? I go to sleep wanting to cut and I wake up wanting to cut. It's completely taking over my life again and I'm not even cutting. I just don't know what to do. I try distracting myself and it's working a little bit but just not enough!! I hate feeling this way and I don't know how much longer I can go without doing it. What should I do??

[chkymnky]

put ur razor away hun, uv done so well not cutting for 3months u can do it. having ur razor next to u ready wont help ur urge hun believe me, been there, just keeping posting on here,
do u kno wats made u want to start cutting again hun?

hugssss

[Popple]

*cuddles*
Well done for going 3 months its an amazing achievement and I know you are struggling now but this is all a part of recovery and you can get through this.
If you have done or do slip up remember that is not failure and you can keep going and beat this.
You are a very strong person to have come this far.
Keep fighting sweetie
And try putting any tools in a place where it would take alot more effort to get them having them in front of you isn't going to help.
Take care of yourself love
xx

[Katiee]

Hun, calm down.
You've done soo well on three months without cutitng. You don't want to ruin all you're hard work do you? You can get through this. I know it will be really hard, but you just got to keep going. :] Think positive. Take care xx

[dizzietheimperfect1]

I'm still really triggered. I'm having really bad nightmares. I did put my razor away though. I don't know how I made it through yesterday and if I'm going to make through today. I go to therapy tomorrow but I don't know if I'm going to make it that long.