Triggering (SI/OD) - struggling

[Spirit of an Angel]

since my last od ive struggled every day to stay safe on going out today i had that feeling back dizzy dishorinated which led me to od after it ,
im struggling to be safe i dont know what to doive already SI and i want to do more ,there is nothing i can do to get away from it ive tried some distractions and had the bath and the games im still haunted by the past and last year why am i there again i just dont know any more

[wildly insane]

*hugs* can you go get help hun? Is there someone you can talk to?

[Spirit of an Angel]

no there is no one at moment its always been like that every one is too busy to talktx for hug

[wildly insane]

If you catch me online and wanna chat just send me a message, I'd be happy to, or just send me a message saying anything you want anyway, I'm here, hugs, Hannah

[Spirit of an Angel]

thanx hannah i feel so alone even my own daughter wont do any thing for me im not worth it i dont know why i bother any more ive had it arghhhhhhhhh so low again i just cant seem to get out of it i was out last night i was on my own at a table they asked ,but i knew they did not want me to sit with them i should not have gone last night i should have stayed at home and do what i usually do bed .

[wildly insane]

You are worth it, don't give up on yourself. I'm sure your daughter cares, maybe she just doesn't know what she can do to help? Sorry to hear about last night, sometimes you do need to do something that's not the same as you do every night, even if it doesn't turn out so well. I hope tomorrow goes better, you are never totally alone, and there is always hope, even if you can't see it, hugs, Hannah

[Spirit of an Angel]

thanx wildlyinsane been out had another dizzy disoriented spell thanx for hug still feel alone but im scared now when he get served the divorce papers for him to sign he will have a go at me and hurt me again im really scared ive nowhere to go though,