Triggering (SI/OD) - I told my physciolist too much and now she leaving me

brap_brap · 05-02-2009, 11:35 PM

Today i told my physciolist that i took a OD yesterday and that i used to do it in the past

Afterwards She had to tell my GP because it was duty of care and i had to stay until i spoken to him which i did
But she said that her contact was finishing and she has to find me a new person

I didnt actually tell her that i was thinking i was going to end it
but i said that when i did it in the past i didnt want to be here

Sorry if it doesnt make sence ill sort it tomoz

Im far too shattered to post

crazykat · 05-02-2009, 11:49 PM

That must have been a really hard thing to hear espeically since it obviously took you alot of courage to open up to her. She may be referring you onto someone else as she may be out of her depth professionally. It sounds like she wants you to have someone who can support you a bit better. Please tell someone you feel like ending it, so they can help support you through this difficult time. Don't give up hope hunny you can and will get through this. I know from experience it can be an extremely hard thing to start with someone new and build up that trust again but I also know that sometimes this has worked out really well in the end and I have someone that is more experienced and can support me better. So give it a chance, it may turn out better than expected and you will get the support you need. Take care
Kat xxxx

airwolf282 · 06-02-2009, 09:41 AM

hey hun,

Please don't feel that you did the wrong thing in telling her. And I seriously doubt that she doesn't want to treat you for personal reasons. I think she probably feels that you would benefit from a different kind of therapy from a different therapist. At least she is looking for that new therapist for you. I think that is very professional of her, it would be so negligent if she just said "you're on your own from here". In just about every profession, different people have different methods of doing their job. I would imagine that therapists, counsellors and psychologists are no exception. Maybe she felt that her methods in helping you weren't working and that you need another approach. Not all counsellors are going to work for all people because everybody's personality is different. For example, I benefit more from supportive counselling than the old fashioned hard arse "tough love" approach used by clinical psychologists on people with low to moderate depression because my personality is much more sensitive than the average person. At times I felt hurt by the former approach that lead to more self injury and OD's whereas the latter approach of simply allowing me to get everything off my chest and developing strategies to tackle those issues takes a lot of my mental anguish away.

Anyway that's just my thoughts, I really hope they find you a good psychologist that you will benefit from seeing.

Nathan

brap_brap · 06-02-2009, 01:19 PM

I just read my post. It doesnt make any sense

today i feel bad because i told her about the OD. and it makes me want to take another one today but im going to give my stuff to a friend whos going to get rid of it. So i cant do it.

She kept on asking if it was a serious sudical attempt but i said no it wasnt

The doctor asked me the same question and asked me if i was going to kill myself how would i do it.

I know excatly(spelling) how to do it but i said No idea

one_step_closer · 06-02-2009, 01:51 PM

I'm sorry that things are so difficult for you right now. Did your psychologist say that her contract was finishing before you told her about the overdose? Sometimes professionals are only allowed to work with people for a certain period of time, it's good that she's trying to find some more support for you through. Why do you feel bad about telling her about the OD? Would you like to tell us why you took the OD before? I'm glad that you are keeping yourself safe. What was the outcome of your consultation with the doctor? Please take care and get in touch if you need anything.

brap_brap · 06-02-2009, 02:06 PM

crying just now. Its feels like i let her down and everyone down. She told me afterwards that her contract was finishing. I took the OD's before because i wanted to end it. The doctor just said that the amount i took it wasnt dangerousand he just blap on about the risks and what it would do to people who take it in large amounts

~*forever_broken*~ · 06-02-2009, 08:16 PM

I am very proud of you for telling her about your OD and past history of it as well. That is a very, very hard thing to do (and I am speaking from experience here) and I hope you are proud of yourself as well. I am sorry to heary that your psych has to leave and find you someone else. I've been through two (both interns at the Uni I attended and so I did know they would be leaving) and it is hard, especially when you've developed a relationship so trusting that you can open up like that. I wish I had advice as to what to do about these feelings you are undoubtedly having... I don't (I don't deal well with feelings myself and so try and avoid them, especially the negative ones).

Please take care. I am glad you are here talking to folks.

*hugs*

Ally

Spirit of an Angel · 06-02-2009, 08:54 PM

hi just read your thread and i believe it is because she cant deal with it and it has reached her proffessional boundry thats why she has refferd you to another counsellorits not what you have done or said it is because it has reached where she cant help you any more.
well done for telling her i know how hard it is to open up .

free spirit

brap_brap · 07-02-2009, 04:05 PM

I just feel like i have to start all over again n this new person will know about the OD's

'argh why does it have to be me

~*forever_broken*~ · 07-02-2009, 11:28 PM

*hugs* I know sweetie. Same reason I am not all that upset that I can't find a PCP (doc) in this town... just another person to add to the list of those that know how screwed up I am. Then again, it is their job, so hopefully this person will be really great and understand...