So i went ... eventually

[dead.girls.dont.cry]

so i went to my doctor this morning. it was quite possibly the scariest thing i have done in my life =[.
I had a mini panic attack in the waiting room. i very nearly just run out of them room but i was too stuck in my chair :S. but yeah yeah anyway i didn't.

so i went in and just blurted out everything, was in tears in about 5 minutes n i think he realized i was serious.

so i got referred to the crisis mental health team, meeting with a councilor tomorrow, they going to do a risk assessment with a psych next week.

they say i will probably be put on medication but they need to assess me properly before they consider it. and also said by the sounds of it, there is a chance i have Bi-Polar disorder :S its scary as hell.

but at least something is happening now and i'm not completely on my own =] im getting help.

anyway just thought i would let you know how it went, might help make others make the decision to go. its not so scary when you get through it.

[Lyssie]

Wow, I just want to say that you are sooo brave!
I know just how petrifiying it is going to the Dr and saying everything that you feel! You have done so well, *hugs* Keep us updated yeah? And you can PM me whenever you like! Lyssie xx

[one_step_closer]

Well done, i'm glad you're getting support and I hope everything works out well for you. Take care.

[sherlock holmes]

Well done for going, I hope you get the support you need.

[Kija]

fantastic, well done! i was talking to u on chat the other night? very proud of u, im so glad they took u seriously, and that ur getting help, fantastic.
again if u want to talk about or ask any questions on anything or specifically the bipolar scaryness, im here, and my pm box is open!
well done!
xxx

[deadstar]

Well done for going to the doctors and i am so pleased you are going to be getting the help you deserve :)
Take care and keep us updated
xx

[dead.girls.dont.cry]

thank you everyone =] your all so kind, but im really not that brave, its taken me 2 years to get to this point n ive still got a hell of a long way too go. =[

but this is the start i hope.

[Lyssie]

Making the first step, and realising that you have a problem is always hard and probably the bigest step to make, and you did it, that's AMAZING! You ARE brave, you should be so proud like we all are of you *hugs* xx

[inblack]

I'm so glad you went to your doctor and are getting some help now. Its a really hard thing to do so you should be proud of yourself. Keep us posted :)

[dead.girls.dont.cry]

thank you =] i am kinda proud of myself mostly just cos i didnt bolt like i thought i would and wanted to.

i shall give yous an update after my next meeting xx

[Misunderstood.]

That was so brave of you to go and see the doc

Good to hear that it's got the ball rolling in terms of getting help and support.

You definitely should be proud!, it's quite an achievement.

Catherine x