Triggering (SI) - Not quite sure

Danny R · 05-02-2009, 12:09 PM

Well this is the first time i've ever really admitted to what i feel is wrong with me (Except to a psych/mental health assesment thing) But i'm not quite sure what exactly IS wrong with me, or if anyone else suffers from the same kinda things.

For the past few years my mind hasn't been what it used to be, i see things differently, i react differently and i feel there's something there that shouldnt be.

I'm often paraniod about alot of things, i'm not a big fan of public transport (Since if someone sits next to me i don't know, i have to move,) i just get a feeling that everyone is out to get me, so i do what i can to make sure it won't happen. I don't really trust many people, i wish i could, but i can't find it in myself to do so.

OCD: My psych said i have OCD, Which i can agree with i guess since i'm really fussy about alot of things, alphabetasizing things, cleaning things, constantly cleaning my hands etc.

Crowded places/outside: I try not to go outside as much as i can. i can go for general things, shop, buy clothes etc, sometimes i've been to meets too, but generally i feel so...closed in. I hate crowded places, i don't like it when there's alot of other people in a room with myself (Which is why i didn't enjoy school much) and just generally would prefer to be on my own, in my own space.

Voices/Other things: I'm not quite sure about this, i know i've heard voices, alot of which led to me Self harming alot of the time, and my psych said it's not uncommon for someone in my situation (Whatever that means.)

I have to go through a core CTB? mental health assesment soon, and i'm quite nervos about it, admitting my problems has never really been a strong point for me, neither has trying to face them, So i was just wondering if anyone else suffers from the same kind of things, or has been/is going to go through the CTB assesment/Therapy sessions, and if so, could you recommend anything to help calm my nerves about it or tell me something about what it is, since i have no idea.

Sorry about the essay, i get kinda carried away

Feels good to finally get stuff of my chest, and to be able to admit what i feel is wrong with me, any help would be appreciated, thanks.

sherlock holmes · 05-02-2009, 01:52 PM

You mean CBT? Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. It's supposed to really good, especially with things like OCD.

Maybe in your assessment you could print off what you wrote here and show it to the people assessing you.

Remember that they are there to help you, and they wont judge you whatever you say.

Good luck.

inblack · 06-02-2009, 01:42 AM

Well I know for sure other people feel what you feel. Most of those are pretty common problems.

I know that I personally HATE crowded places. I've developed a lot of social anxiety over the years....or maybe I've just become more aware of what my feelings really are. I think I was always very anxious around people but was too young to realize my feelings were feelings of anxiety (if that makes sense).

I have heard voices in the past too. Sometimes I still do, but not often. It happens the most when I'm under a lot of stress.

I dont' know much about assessment. I'm having my first assessment in like 4 days *freaks out* The psychologist told me I would be doing a 20 minute questionnaire and then a 1.5 hour interview with him. My guess is they will ask you a lot of questions about your mental health, what symptoms you experience, how much it interferes with your life, and probably some questions about your past. I've been writing some stuff in a book to take with to my assessment because I'm worried that I won't be able to talk much about it once I get there, you could always try something like that if you wanted.