Triggering (OD) - So I have a psychiatrist review tomorrow.

[Asystole]

And they don't come around very often. I actually had to fight to get this one pushed forward so soon. They cancelled mine at the end of january due to some kind of sick leave and gave me a new one for April.

I'm not doing so hot. But.. the only way I can really get this message across tomorrow is if I drink this half a bottle of vodka I have before my appointment. At 11:30am. Yeah it's early.

It's probably NOT the best of ideas, as it's this kind of behaviour they're seemingly getting worried over but I don't see any other way of getting my message across and saying what I want to say. If i'm sober then I will just freeze up and give short one worded replies repeatedly when he asks if i'm okay and if I feel any of my old symptoms returning, which will get us nowhere and lead to me being in A&E four times a month until my next distant appointment.

I wonder how it's going to go down.

[dark_light]

Could you write something down explaining what the problems are to give to the psych? that might be easier than talking. I guess drinking beforehand isn't the best idea.
Good luck x

[pancake]

Hi,

i am new to this site, sorry if i sound silly. Have you thought about writting down what you want to say or recording it so can just give them the letter or tape and then they will know. Its just a way of opening up a dialoge so your kind of not letting yourself freeze and once you get it started the relive can be better than the worry, fear and hangover.

[Asystole]

I guess I could do that.

I've done that in the past but feel like such an idiot whilst they sit there and read it.

[pancake]

You're not an idiot, i do it so many times when i cant comunicate what i need to and also when others can't hear me. Some times i go to far and get in trouble but hey conversations would'nt happen otherwise. It sounds really important to you not to have to wait again so it's worth doing.

[Sleepless123]

i hope that you do manage to write something or get your thoughts out/what you want to say out somehow.

Be it verbally or not.

You are right that drinking before probably really isnt a good idea if you can help it.i do hear your desperation though and just wanted to wish you good luck.

i will be thinking of you.

You can do this.

And as you say, it doesnt come round that often and you had to fight for this so make the most of it but i understand its hard.

Good luck.

[ThinkingofRecovery]

How did it go?
Hope you managed to do it without drinking. My psych still likes to remind me that the first time I saw her I was still drunk, lying on the floor being sick - yeah, that was a planned appt aswell. Very ashamed!

[dark_light]

How did it go? Did you manage to say what you needed?
Hope it went ok x

[Tears of Solitude]

Thinking of you ? How did it go ?

[Asystole]

I got prescribed some anti depressant called Duloxetine. :3

[ThinkingofRecovery]

I hope it helps. Did they suggest anything else to help other than meds? Did you manage to tell them how difficult it is for you at the moment? Do you have any other support - cpn or something?