Triggering (SI) - Caught lying

[simply dashing]

I'm always very truthful with my ex-partners. This has always been the foundation of our relationship. And then I lied.....a lie of omision worst kind of lie.
I SI one night and was too chicken to tell them what I did, then I hurt myself again a few days ago and told them only about the last 'episode'. All was OK they were understanding and suportive. Then they asked me if they could see my legs.....crap. So that was that My ex girlfiend gave me a look of disapointment/anger, I feelt terible, still do. Had a talk with them. Still angry.
One positive thing came out of it though.....I am trying to find a new councellor and see if our personalities fit. A friend of mine is a psychologist and she recomended me a few places. So nervous, but maybe something good will come out of this. I never want see her look at me like that.

[Tears of Solitude]

I know that look.

The last time I self harmed, which was serious I had to call an ambalance. The look on my Hubby's face was one of Anger, disappointment. I never have seen that look before.

I was soooo scared that this time I had pushed him too far. That this was it, our marriage was over. It scared me so much I vowed to stop. Which I have.

He said it was the shock and having to cope with the situation that caused that look. That for one second he wasnt going to abandon me.

The positive that came out of your situation is that you are going to find a new councellor which is great. Maybe with professional support you might be able to understand why you feel the need to do it and finally be able to stop.

Good luck and stay safe

Jade xxx

[~Grace~]

I too have had 'that' look from my husband. Its was very hard for me to see. It made me sit down with him and explain more in detail about my condition. So now he has more understanding of what is going on.

Im sorry this happened to you, but am pleased that it is leading to you seeking a new cousellor.

Take care xx