I feel like I am losing the fight I want to change.It is just so hard I thought I was doing good but then last night. I could not stop the urge and I ended up cutting.I hate myself for doing it
Let us hold your hand through this difficult time. Keep talking to us, and most of all keep fighting.
Please dont feel too guilty because it makes you feel worse which then in turns makes you want to cut more. < catch 22 >
Try and see it as a blip that you can get over and start again. That you can stop once, you can do it again. This time you have your own personal record to beat.
Jade's right, stay strong and just start again you can do it, keep fighting, don't let this little stumble affect your goal, step by step, little by little, even if we fall we can get up again as long as we keep trying. hugs, Hannah
"I am me and me is good enough if I would only be it openly"
Please dont hate yourself along the road of recovery there will be slip ups, no one is perfect, but that is exactly what it is a slip up, you are still moving forward you are still doing good and you can do this.
Whenever you feel the urge coming on, go out of your way to distract yourself, even come on here and chat to me if you like or i can give you my msn or something. If you have to take recovery a minute at a time, i had to for a long time - if i can just get through this minute then maybe i wont have to do it the next.
Dont doubt yourself you can do this.
Phoenix xxx
Wish i could tie you up in my shoes....make you feel unpretty too...
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see......
You're still here in my heart.
Don't feel guilty, as its been said above, it will only make you feel worse. It's a slip up, that's it. Recovery is a long winding road, like smoking, you'll get urges and they will surprise you. Most of them you'll be able to get over, some you won't.
But also, being weird tonight, I think your guilt is also a step forward. It means you know you shouldn't have done it which is a very big step forward anyway.
And you can use the wounds as I do - watch them heal, makes me think the stuff that caused me to do it in the first place is also healing. As the wound goes away, so does what has caused you to do it in the first place.
But whatever you do, Hun, don't worry or beat yourself up about it - you've managed to stop cutting for a while, which is a big thing to do. We all have slip ups - 2 steps forward and 1 back still means you've moved a step forward.
Take care
Loz x
You don't have to be a monkey to recognize a banana!
I am trying not to be to hard on myself things have been going alright. I am trying again and feel good to have such great people like you guys to talk to thanks I am just going to keep trying and hope for the best
Dam it guys I can't beat this i just sliced my leg up pretty bad a few deep cuts I know this is not going to be easy but it just got to me today when my kids had to go back to there mom and her new boyfriend i need to end this so i can get to see them more then they let me now but i just don't know any other reason to stop i know they should be enough but things have been so hard lately that i feel like i need some other reason to stop
*hugs* sorry to hear that you're hurting so much. Have you gotten your leg looked at? Do you need to go to A&E?
As for reasons to stop, it's likely to be a hard battle no matter what your reason... are you talking to anyone about it? Keep talking here and we'll try to help you as best we can.
Remember there's no such thing as a small act of kindness.
Every act creates a ripple with no logical end. ~ Scott Adams
i went and had my leg checked out it was bad but could have been alot worse they said.
i have a roommate now who talks to me alot and has been good at distracting me from cutting so that is kinda helping but at the same time it is like having a babysitter but at least i have not harmed in a few days so that is good right
thanks for the support you are all great HUGS
Scott
Hey how's it going? Sounds like a really good housemate to me. I don't know, but are you talking to anybody about why you are cutting, because maybe you need to deal with the why before you manage to stop, if that makes sense? sorry am not very coherent right now but sending you lots of hugs and hope you can deal with the urges, remember, don't beat yourself up about it, I know sometimes easier said than done, but keep on trying :)
"I am me and me is good enough if I would only be it openly"
yeah i am talking with my therapist about why and things are starting to make some sense to me . i hope to have some understanding as to why i do this.
my housemate is helping me with alot to so that is great i have not cut since last tuesday so it has been almost a week now i am happy about that hope to be able to keep beating the urges thanks everyone for listening and all the hugs and support
