I feel like screaming, crying, cutting. Anything.
I asked my 'best friend' if she wanted to come out with me next weekend and she told me that she was busy with everyone else, all the people who are supposed to be my friends. So I texted the guy whos house it was going on at and asked him straight out why I wasn't invited.
He told me that last time I was invited over I got drunk, slept with X and then accused him of rape. X is the guy that started having sex with me while I was asleep. But I hadn't told anyone the truth about that night except my 'best friend', so I asked her why she told everyone what I'd said and if that was why everyone was avoiding me. She texted back 'everyone's just fed up with your behaviour'.
**** them.
Yeah hon you are better off without people like that, they don't sound very supportive.
Sending you LOTS of hugs xx
"Because you don't notice the light without a bit of shadow. Everything has both dark and light. You have to play with it until you get it exactly right."
People can be so ignorant and cruel at times. Please don't hurt yourself over their short comings. I can only imagine how horrible and let down you feel right now. They do not deserve the power to make you hurt yourself. Please try and stay safe x
So sorry hun that they are being like that towards you. We know that you haven't made it up. To have to deal with all the feelings re what happened and for your friends to not believe you must be terrible.
*hugs*
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
I'm just starting to wonder. What's the ****ing point? All I do is piss people off and now I have no friends.
I even appologised to her for telling her he tried to have sex with me while I was asleep. I don't know why, I thought it would smooth things over. Then she sends that bitchy text about how everyone's fed up with me.
Beth says I don't deserve friends, and she's right, even my family are fed up with me. All my sister does is put me down and hurt my feelings.
God. I am just so ****ing angry at myself. And I'm angry at my 'boyfriend' for just leaving me - I know it was because he didn't want to put up with my mental health issues. He told me I need to sort my head out before we can ever be back together. I also know that him and my friend have probably told everyone about just how ****ing crazy I really am.
It's not fair. He's meant to be the one person I can rely on, to look after me, to make me feel happy and safe. And he just ****ed off.
I can't stop crying.
Beth is wrong, I will be your friend if you let me. I know it's only on here but I have found support on here has been better than the real world at times.
You should not apologise. It was his fault. You did nothig wrong. Please remember that hun.
Hyperness is getting confused with the voices right now so will reply more fully when more able. Who would have known, I don't need my meds do I. Wow, this is a revelation.
Your boyfriend leaving because your mh problems is hard but if you can try and see it from his point of view - most people don't understand mh problems and they can seem scary. You are a great person but unfortunately, he can't see past your illness.
You're not crazy hun, you are ill, you are having difficulties, but you are not crazy. You need some support and help to get through this that is all. Believe it or not, even the most "normal" of people need help at times.
*hugs*
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Im so sorry that this has happened to you, you deserve none of this. It sounds to me as if they are very ignorant people who at the moment you would be better off without.
Please try to keep safe and look after yourself xxxx
aw hun im sorry you have had to go through that there not real friends if they can just throw years of friendship away like that and you bf should be there its not you who is the weak one your still here and dealing with it all
we are all here for you please pm me anytime if you need anything you have many friends here *hope i can be included* :p
take care midnight xxxx
There is no chance, no destiny no fate that can circumvent or hinder or control the firm resolve of a determined soul
Feeling angry and miserable.
But I also feel good because I'm two months free today. I decided those c***s weren't worth my tears or throwing away two months of recovery so I persevered and got through the night.
My dad has cheered me up. This morning I was feeling awful, I kept having these thoughts about killing myself but my dad took me out and talked to me about how proud he is of me getting through two months. Just made me feel stronger.
Two months free is fantastic It's even more so because you didn't let them spoil something that you have fought so hard to do. Glad your dad took you out and told you that.
Well done!
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
It's even more so because you didn't let them spoil something that you have fought so hard to do. Glad your dad took you out and told you that.
