im so stupid!!!

ash<3mcr · 17-01-2009, 09:17 PM

sorry for keep posting, but i really need help

i was stupid to think i could trust my sister about my si now shes told my mam and shes went on one saying i have to tell her why, how i do it, show her it, and went on at me until i had to storm up to my room to get away, i cant handle talking to her about it, she was being calm but i couldnt answer all her questions, i dont want her to know it all, i almost want to lie and make everything seem less than it is to get her off my back, i know thats wrong but it would help for now, i just want to run away but have no where to go

celuthea · 17-01-2009, 09:45 PM

Telling people is the hardest thing in any self-harmers 'career' of self-harm *for want of a better word*, but it will get better. Just try and be honest with your family; it will feel horrendous at first, but once they start to understand, it'll get better. *huggles*

ash<3mcr · 17-01-2009, 09:50 PM

i couldnt talk to her though, im goin 2 docs on tues, was gona wait until i got some help and felt better so i could dealw it it, i couldnt anwer her questions i couldnt talk to her about it, and now i feel stuck in my room,

midnight fairy · 17-01-2009, 10:59 PM

aw hun im sure its alot for you both to process as shes asking to understand and you want to deal with the thought that she knows and how your going to deal with that in your own way your doing the right thing getting the help im here if you want to talk

pm me if you need me for anything

hugs xxxx

ash<3mcr · 17-01-2009, 11:03 PM

ive went downstairs for food, and sitting with everyone but its annoying i know theyve been talking about me, and she wants to know things i cant tell her, i dont know why but i cant talk about that with her

ash<3mcr · 18-01-2009, 01:36 AM

ah i feel like ive got no one right now, my boyfriend doesnt have any way of contacting me his phone and internet are down in his house and he doesnt have any credit, i need him to calm me down but i wont see him for a while and i need to stop feeling sorry for myself and get uni work done, none of my friends who i trust are on msn and i really just need to vent everything, but ive got no way of doing that really need someone to talk to, and i cant talk to my family tonight made that so much clearer

Target Dawn · 18-01-2009, 11:26 AM

If you find it hard to talk to your mum about it then when you go to see your doctor maybe he/she can help you with that? Or you can write down a letter and give it to her, or send an email etc. Just something so it doesn't have to be face-to-face the first time you talk with her about it.

If you need to talk to someone right now then is there some kind of helpline you can call? I've found them quite good in the past.