Triggering (SI/Suicide) - "Need Serious Help"

[Rain Keeper]

That is what she said. I need stronger meds or maybe even a combination. Suicidal actions playing in my mind. Not laying down sharp objects or other tools I use is a "hazard". She is worried I might go "too far" and at this point I could care less.

I am numb. I am confused. All I want to do is sleep. or cut or die

12 more days until i can see the psych dr to be presribed stronger drugs.

I am going down...and must keep my silence.

I did give her what I had on me. She said i could go to the hospital any time night or day if i felt strong enough that i was going to hurt or commit suicide. I took the card. I made a call...emergency line...they will get back to me.HA!

I am at home...took extra time off...I will go in a few minutes....right after I dry my tears.

Rain

[dark_light]

Go to the hospital if you need to, sometimes just the act of going can be enough to distract you from all the awful things going on, even if its just for a while.
Keep holding on till you see your doctor... have hope they can help you.
Sending you lots of hugs x

[wildly insane]

*hugs Rain* hang in there hun, I know it's hard but please find the strength inside you and if you need to, go to the hospital.

[Rain Keeper]

11 days


and still i cry
wonder why


why do they say such positive things
why am i such a good person
why do they not see the part of me i do?


silent
wishing
cut
silently
no mistake
cut
just to keep me alive

[midnight fairy]

hey hun

please if u need help you go im sorry you feel so bad and you have to wait so long for your meds

please pm me anytime if you need to talk

lots of hugs xxxx

[Merc]

I'm proud of you for getting the referral, for going to someone in the first place, that took so much courage but you did it FRainy!

You CAN get thru these next few days, i know you can....i have wanted to call but stupid me has forgotten the time difference so let me know when is good to call ok????

Keep fighting FRainy, and if you just can't, PLEASE go to hospital. I'm sorry to say but this is long long overdo. you have fought alone for too many years and it has jusat sndbagged you now. It is simply too much for one person, i dont know how you stood so long. But you DID! And if you can make it thru all that, you can surely make it thru a few more day hunni.

We are allllll here to listen and hold your hand over this waiting period ok??

Pls email ok? Let me know

Thinking of you
romp

[Rain Keeper]

my days are dark and my nights darker
surviving is the only thing on my mind
med currently on not working possibly bringing me down more
empty of feeling
empty of loving
empty
no talking
just crying
no one around
no one to care

it was a huge step for me
i havent seen a psychiatrist in 25 years
i dont even know what to expect- except maybe another drug to try? i am suicidal in my mind and cutting every hour or so with no pain...this isnt the way this year was supposed to start or be.

Thank you fo holding on to me,
Rain

[wildly insane]

We care *hugs* hope the psychiatrist can help.