Triggering (SI) - Not sure whether im ready.

[leviathan666]

Ok so I've come back home cuz i was going really slipping downhill at uni and my parents know I have an issue with SI (and are very supportive). The trouble is they, obviously want me to quit. Thats fine, I want to quit. But if it were that easy I would have done it already.
The trouble is, I dont feel ready to quite; I continually feel the urges, and for all I want injure to, at the same time I do. I would but then my parents feel bad so I feel worse. I have tried distractions but they dont really work for me. I don't actually know what would, I just kinda wanted to say this in writing someware...so there ive said it.
Cheers for listening.

[Target Dawn]

Don't pressure yourself to quit if you aren't ready otherwise you'll try, fail, and be even more disappointed with yourself. Your parents may want you to quit and I can understand wanting to quit for them but if you do it for someone else, it probably will be harder and you'll be more likely to slip up. Until you are ready get some support from a counsellor or psychologist, try to fight the urges the best you can and don't be too hard on yourself if you can't. When you are ready, you will notice.

[Sometimes Crazy]

It's lovely that your parents are supportive of you - do you think if you sat down and told them this (or even wrote it down) they would listen?

Distractions can be useful when a particular thing you've read/seen has triggered you. But dealing with the feelings behind the urges, such as anger or very depressive feelings, can usually help you to be a lot more sucessful because they're dealing with the actual problem. What do you usually feel when you want to hurt yourself, honey? Do you think you can put it into words for us?

[leviathan666]

Thanks for the replies guys, erm what I feel is kinda complicated it depends on when I do it. Some times I just want to feel better bt others I need to get back to the reality and feel slighlty more real if that makes any sense.