So I have an appointment today with a psychiatrist(i think, may be psychologist) and i'm terrified, because she is the one who will decide my treatment.
I never usually get nervous but at the place i'm going to (Hewat House, its beyond awful) i've seen 4 different people and none of them have believed me when i tell them how i feel.
So I was just wondering, how do i make myself seem more honest!?
I have no idea why i'm having this problem, when i was in CAMHS they were always praising me for my honesty!
I'm so worried that she won't believe me and i'll be left with no help again.
I'm 16 by the way, no idea why i'm in adult services now, and they've pretty much diagnosed me with BPD (by this i mean obviously i'm under 18 so can't be official, but they've asked me how i feel about my diagnosis of BPD, said 'BPD never take responsibility' etc) so i know that's what i'm going to be treated for, if i do get treated
I feel bad for posting this because i know a lot of people do, although i know what i should say and everything, and i've done it about 10 times so i know what to expect, i was just wondering if anyone else has had this problem, and how to solve it.
Don't ever feel sorry for posting love.
It's weird that they've put you into adult services, I asked when I was 17 for an adult psych, because the people at CAMHS basically didn't take me seriously and just told me I'd "grow out of it". Pfft. Anyway.
There is a problem with being diagnosed BPD, in that alot of professionals won't entirely take you seriously, which sucks. But maybe they've moved you to adult because they're giving you an adult diagnosis? But since you're still an adolescent (sp?) it's likely you'll be treated differently, even though you shouldn't.
As for seeming honest, I don't think you can try and make yourself seem more honest as such. I think psychs have always had a problem believing me because I don't get emotional when I talk about things, I just turn very objective and explain it, I don't know if being emotional about stuff would help... I think all you can do is explain yourself yet again and hope for the best.
I'm sorry this is a long and crappy post...
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
I think they've put me in adult services due to location:i was told that if i moved my GP surgery i could be in CAMHS, but I don't want to get a new GP when i've been seeing my current one for 8 years.
Mmm, i've been told i can't handle adult therapy, which is ridiculous, all i've wanted these last few years was someone to be honest and mean with me, its what helps, and to think i cant have that because of my age...:(
I don't get emotional either!
That may my problem too then, I can be sat there saying completely '****ed up' things with a completely calm face and no expression.
Thankyou for replying :))
Ah, adult therapy doesn't necesarily mean someone will be honest and mean with you, as such. And while it shouldn't be a matter of age, it's a fact that age really counts. I can understand why they wouldn't diagnose me as a teenager, but it's pissy that they wouldn't even help :/ took me 4 years (i.e. from 16 to 20) to get the help I needed. Be persistent, don't let it take that long, my sixth form life was really f*cked up because nobody would help.
There's something about being in a psych's office and talking about it all, kinda makes you objective, at least in my mind. I dunno. I hope it all goes well for you.
If it helps, I'm BPD and almost 21, so I've been through some fo the works. If you want to PM me about anything, you're always welcome :)
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
I don't understand why they haven't read my file.
:(
I have a 300 page file from when i was in CAMHS and they haven't read it, then have the nerve to accuse me of lying and attention seeking.
Sorry, i just remembered that, things like that make me angry.
Mm, i understand that, I just have heard about it being more honest and hard work than CAMHS and i was looking forward to it in a way.
I saw a therapist for the last 3 or so months in CAMHS and he was honest with me and quite mean at times, and it worked wonders!
Then of course, he left like all my other therapists have.
Really helped my abandonment issues.
Mmm, i'm on the verge of dropping out of sixth form, i don't want to but i really can't go.
:/
I've tried to be persistent, my mum, college counsellor and doctor have all written to them asking them to help me but i just got told i was attention seeking and 'what reason have you got to feel like this?'
You wouldnt think a psychiatrist would be stupid enough to ask that question.
Ahh, sorry a bit of a rant.
I appreciate your help.
Rant all you like. I don't think anyone, especially a psych should ever accuse someone of lying about something this serious. That's dreadful! I don't blame you for being angry. And how the HELL can a psych say "what do you have to be depressed about?" seriously, I'm fuming about that. But especially after having 2 referals from professionals and another from a concerned parent. I swear you could make a proper massive complaint about that if you wanted.
You could go back to CAMHS if you wanted. Just reregister with another surgery until you get the referral then change back, or go to your other GP under a "temporary resident" thingy. It sounds almost like that'd be a better option.
Also, don't drop out of sixth form. It may seem like hard work, and seriously crap at times but it's worth persevering. Repeat a year if you need, or change subjects, but in the long run, best stick with it.
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
Mmm, i'm getting badly anxious about it now, i feel so sick and i might dissociate.
I was going to make an official complaint after the first psychiatrist i saw said some really hurtful things-i told him my old therapist had indicated a personality disorder and he said 'yes i expect you've researched them well, your symptoms are very accurate, hmmmm' and i was like 'are you seriously accusing me of making this up, when im actually unfortunate (i know other people have it worse but still) enough to have ALL the symptoms/diagnostic criteria' and he just said 'come back in 2 years and we might help you'
God, i'm dreading it.
last time i went to this place (last week after a 'crisis' appointment as i was suicidal, thats when they said the things i mentioned above') i went to the reception desk to say i was there and EVERYONE glared at me.My dad saw it too so i know it wasnt paranoia.
Mmmm, im seriously considering CAMHS, i'll see how today goes.
I reaallyreally don't want to drop out, but its actually physically impossible for me to go at the moment - if i attempt it i either dissociate or have a panic attack, also i have huge problems doing work outside of the classroom, so im pretty much screwed.
aaarrhhhhh/.
My appointments at 3, im smoking like crazy.
:(
"What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us." Ralph Waldo Emerson
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hi, sorry that they're being so weird. i saw someone at 17 and they told me i couldnt be depressed as i had a boyfriend. basically took me from 16/17 - 22 to get diagnosed properly i have bpd. ever want to chat about it feel free to pm me. i'm still coming to terms with everything and hating the treatment. if you look at me meds thread you can see why!
some medical professionals are truly crap. dont be afraid to change, i changed lots.
as for the sitting there and not being emotional thats me totally, i just describe things, totally disconnected i suppose. i analyse things aswell in a "unaffected" attitude way.
being diagnosed wrong and ignored, totally ruined my 6th form. i ****ed that up big time. i hope you dont drop out and stick at it, even though it is insanely hard alongside everything else going on.
you could seriously complain ithink.
let us know how the appoinment went,
sorry i didnt see this thread sooner
and like i said earlier pm me if you want.
xxx
Thanks for your replies, sorry i havent been on in a while to tell you about it :)
Well, it actually went pretty well.
I'll be getting DBT basically, but without the group part, because she didn't think i'd benefit from being in group therapy with mostly 30+ year olds.
So it's finally going somewhere!
I'm gonna go to my doctors and ask him for anxiety pills now, to help me leave the house, and he should say yes because he's not one of the people that thinks i have a drinking problem, although i have asked before and he's said he won't without the permission of the mental health team.
It;s so annoying, i was on fluoxetine before!
I;ve been diagnosed with depression, OCD, bulimia (i was NOT bulimic), alcohol/weed dependence issues and anxiety in the past, apparently.
And she told me my diagnosis hasn't been written in my file yet (SHE READ IT!!:D) and it would be good if it didnt have to be, so i won't ruin career stuff and those types of things.
So yeah, i;m reasonably happy with how it went, just have to get my...well, my caseholder i guess, to agree to it, which she should seeing as she was the one who referred me for DBT, although knowing her she won't.Lying bitch.
Hey I'm pleased for you honey :) DBT is meant to be really effective. I don't see why your caseholder shouldn't agree to it, but I don't know the situation. Good luck with it all x
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
