is it a bad thing..?

[silverfaerychild]

I am curious bout something

is it a bad thing when you have sometimes uncontrolable rage and have your vision during the time go in and out of surrounding colors ..?



cause when i get into a rage i end up seeing black alot durning the rage and i mainly lose all control over my actions and what i say...

and i do remember what happens durning the rage


but i also have paranoia

but i am being treated for Depression , Possible boarderline personality,Panic attacks and ptsd

[Stellata]

Do you mean bad emotionally or physically?

I have rage attacks as part of my PTSD/dissociation stuff. In them it's like everything is too close, and toxic, and I have to fight to get free. It's like I'm trapped in a past reality, at the mercy of everyone, and I have to fight to protect myself.

It's good to work at understanding the root causes of such attacks, and recognising how it's not ok to hurt others or yourself when you feel so enraged. It's good to listen within, and dialogue internally to explore what's really going on - to take some time out to do this. To begin with this will be after the event, but as time goes by you can start to feel the feelings flooding in, and then you can hold them more, without being so controlled by them.

[silverfaerychild]

oh i am known to hold my anger in alot

and i know when i start to boil up inside

cause my chest feels heavy and i just feel warm all over

[Stellata]

Yeah, when you hold in your anger a lot, it still has to go somewhere, and so ends up exploding like it does.

[silverfaerychild]

interseting