Triggering (SI) - wanting to si

[cuggles]

ughh i duno what to do i feel so shit i cant do this i cant hold of anylonger tell me what to do please tell me

[lostdoll]

Hey hun
Just calm, breathe. Stay here, stay online and talk to us. You don't have to do anything, you can just stay here and chill a bit until you're feeling more secure and calm.

You can hold on, you can do this. Distract yourself, speak to us, speak to a supporter on Live Help/Support Chat. You can stay here on the forum and I'll speak to you for a bit. Tell a family member or friend if you think you're going to do something dangerous. Anything is better than that. Is there somewhere that makes you feel really secure and safe? Go there.

Take care of yourself m'dear, you can do this. Talk it out, write it out, distract yourself with games/tv/music, talk to a friend, squeeze ice, draw on yourself with red pen.
xo

[cuggles]

thanks hun sorry i just duno why well i do but dont qorry

[lostdoll]

Well if you want to talk about it, you're welcome to. Nobody's going to judge you here.
xo

[cuggles]

well i had to do CPR on a member of the public i didnt know thm
but it was like they are apart of my family now
shes gone she didnt make it and now all i want to do it die to be with her she deserved to live she had 3cildren to look after no family the kids are in care what do i do

[Animad]

It's not your fault she died. You tried your hardest, just keep thinking that. Theres nothing else you can do but try not to think that its your responsibility to try to sort out all of the loose ends. It will just make you feel worse.

I'm sorry you have to go through this, it must be terrible.

[magic_heart]

Just stay online, there are lots of people to talk too. Try Live Help, or you could PM me if you want to chat. I will try my best to help. x x x x

[lostdoll]

You did CPR on her when I'm sure no-one else would. You should be so proud of yourself that you did the very best you could. Deaths are so difficult to deal with, so hard to understand. You should grieve this woman, cry, deal with this death like you would anyone elses.

Stay strong, speak to your family, go to the funeral and gain support from everyone else who will be feeling the same as you are. Don't suffer alone, there are people who are there to help you.
xo

[cuggles]

thanks all so sorry i let you down i couldent stop myself :(