Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - EMDR Flashbacks

[Left in the centre]

Hi guys.
So in september i started getting flashbacks about being abused
And my therapist had just gone on maternity leave ...
So then she came back and there where issues with my funding so i still didnt get to deal with it
And then it was xmas but she said we'll figure out if the flashbacks are true in january

But now im scared i've convinced myself its true, its not true time and time again in the past 4 months

I want it to be true so its not something i'm making up
But if its true its going to destrroy my family and everything

I'm having this therapy called EMDR .. anyone heard of it
...

[melda]

I have heard of that therapy, but Ive never had it. While it is important to establish whether the flashbacks are true or not, it is important to know how to deal with the emotions that they are bringing up for you. The flashbacks seem real to you and stir real emotions and real feelings, so that is the important thing. Its a shame that you have had to wait for so long to see your therapist, I had the same problem with funding. In the meantime try writing down what happens in the flashbacks and how they make you feel and at what time of the day they happen. Try not to worry yourself too much about whether they are true or not.

[Wonderland.]

Hey sweetie that must be very confusing not knowing whether something happened or not, i've experience that and it can be quite unnerving and can confused you a lot.
Hope you find the therapy helpful.

Amy x

[Left in the centre]

Thanks guys...
i've been keeping a diary of what i remember and stuff
not many days to go .. only like 9 days :S

[abba12]

I wish I could offer some help, but I don't know that therapy...

Still, wether they are real or not the flashbacks are just as upsetting. You need to try and deal with whats happening now, not with what may or may not have happened in the past. what happens now should be dealt with in similar ways wether its real or not.

[saved the strawberries]

i've had that therapy. if you want to talk or have questions PM me anytime.

[Left in the centre]

Well i need to know one way or the other now guys
I've just been with my boyfriend ... and im a mess i ran into the bathroom crying and throwing up because i could see all the memories in my head it felt real.

x