Triggering (SI) - Do you think you have grown up with self injury
I was thinking last night i tell people i started self injury at 12
but thinking about it
I scratched myself with a paper clip at 10
Banged head on desks at 7
Banged head on wall at 6/7
So do you think you've been born with self injury in ya
i've done SI-ish stuff most of my life. i remember odd stuff like slamming my head into something one time and spraining my neck..that was like 3rd grade...but yeah.
I guess so. I cut when I was like... 12/13 then stopped and did it very occasionally, till I was 17 when it got pretty bad.
But before that I would hit my head on walls when I was 9/10.
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That's quite a possibility. When I was younger when I got mad I'd bite myself until it started hurting(this is like 2-5 maybe). And one time when I was like 6 or 7 there was a knife on a cabinet (it was by my room and I was looking for bath fizzies hm) and I wondered what'd it feel like to cut myself with it so I made it look like an accident by making it fall off and hit my arm. It made a small cut and I was a little confused about it....like I felt happy I'd done it but...idk. It's hard to explain lol.
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I guess in a way, yeah I have. I just don't think I was always aware of it at the time. When I was 4-7 I slammed my head into walls, bite myself or scratched myself really hard whenever I was upset or felt I'd been 'bad'. I started scratching with knives when I was 10. I didn't actually cut to the point of seriously bleeding/scaring until I was 13. That was over four years ago, and it's been a struggle everyday since.
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That's interesting... I started cutting at 13, but I used to dig my fingernails into my skin when I was younger and I still revert back to that if I am in a place where I can't cut and I need to relieve some stress... I never really thought of that as self injury but looking back on it... maybe it was.
I remember when I was really young, I would bite my arm. I would dig my fingernails really hard into my skin as well, for actually a few years and up until I learned about SI. I would also squeeze ice cubes or snap my bracelet, which I find a bit ironic. And there's more that I can't think of right now, I'm sure. Huh...I've never thought of it that way, of those things as SI...interesting thread you have here.
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Well, once when I was around 13, I found a certain type of knife and wanted to see if it was sharp. It was. I don't remember it hurting a lot though.
When I was really little (I remember doing it in the church I went to before my parents split, and that was the summer between 1st and 2rd grades), I would bite myself until it left a mark.
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same with me. never cut til 12 or 13 but i used to hurt myself when i was way younger in other ways. i also had an eating disorder (well early signs of one) at like 9. and i found out recently mymother used to SI and be anarexic
thinking about it in a way I have although I wasn't really aware of it at the time. When I was younger I used to scratch myself or dig my fingernails into my arms to try and leave a mark. Also when I was about 9/10 I remember I used to slap myself.
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I don't know if i believe i was born with it in me, but i know i been hurt myself (headbutting things, chucking myself down stairs, hitting myself etc.) since i was about 6 as thats like the furthest i can remember back but the difference was that i wasn't aware of what i was doing so i wouldn't exactly say that was self harm because that is purposely harm yourself and i wasn't conciously doing that maybe i was subconciously but i don't know.
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This is so weird I've been thinking about this a lot recently. I don't know if it was all done conciously so maybe that's not SH, but I can definitely remember hurting myself way back. I remember burning myself when I was like 5, and banging my head sort of on purpose to see what people would do. Then I started hitting myself and cutting way back before I even knew what SH was - I was 13 by then, but had lived quite a sheltered life really.
I guess if you have that kind of personality where you don't (initally) see hurting yourself as taboo etc, then you will probably begin experimenting quite early on.
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Wow. I hadn't really thought about this before now. but like a lot of others whove already posted, i remember harming myself but not consciously. as long back as i remember i have picked at my skin - whether its was dry or completely fine. i also used to bite my hand too. ive always had problems with eating. whatever happened though didnt turn to anything "serious" til I was about 15.
Well thats my input, to be fair i don't know what my holistic opinion is on this, but im interested in reading other peoples views, see how similiar we all can be.
There was another post about this a while ago. I too did more settle forms of self injury when I was younger before I started cutting. I don't really think we are born into it though. I think it has more to do with how we were raised. We were just never taught the right way to deal with emotions and things at an early age. As for not doing it consciously I think a lot of kids do things like that unconsciously it doesn't necessarily mean they will start self harming more in the future. The only thing that might make someone more prone to self injury dealing with genetics is if depression ran in the family.
