It sounds like you're feeling pretty lost right now, but you also seem to know that you need to make some changes, and that's a good step.
What is it that you're looking for when you're doing these things, whether it's SIing, drinking, whatever it might be. What is it that you need that you're hoping to find, feel, etc. ? If you have some, I'm sure you can come up with some alternatives, things you can do instead. For example, when I need a distraction or if I'm feeling really awful, I write. That may not work for you specifically, but there are a ton of options, a million things you can do instead of drinking or SIing. If you need some ideas or need help distracting yourself, let us know! That's why we're here; to help. ^_^
In regard to the unprotected sex, I think you should know that emergency contraception/ Plan B is not foolproof. You said you'll be fine once you get it, but you should be aware - if you aren't already, that is - that you are still at risk of becoming pregnant. Plan B reduces the risk by up to 75%, but that's still not great odds. And of course it doesn't protect you against STDs. Given everything you posted, perhaps it would be in your best interest to book an Ob/GYN appointment and get a full exam and STD testing. Please know that I'm not trying to criticize or make you feel bad about yourself; we all make mistakes and poor decisions, especially when we're struggling. Rather, I'm hoping that you'll look after yourself and take the steps you need to take to ensure that you're healthy.
Good luck and take care of yourself. <3
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