Triggering (SI/ED) - Transference

melda · 19-12-2008, 09:25 PM

I haven't SI'd in four a half weeks and I thought I was doing great, then my eating issues began coming back and I now have my ED back again. It seems that when I dont SI I get my ED and then when I dont have my ED I SI. Its always one or the other, there is never a time where there is no SI or ED. I think that when I stopped SI'ing I didnt have any other way to release my feelings so my feelings manifested themselves iin the ED. Then when I start Si'ing again, the ED seems to go away. Does anyone else get this?

AdamLeliel · 19-12-2008, 09:31 PM

First of all, congratulations for going that length of time without self harming. You were doing great and it was a great achievement.

I tend to switch whatever "coping methods" I'm using-- not exactly the same, but similar.

Cedrus · 20-12-2008, 12:04 AM

Well done for not self injuring :)

I have the same type of problem as you. I used to have eating problems and was underweight, now that I haven't self harmed for a while I've started to have problems with food again. Are you receiving any help, like therapy? I think it's important to try to understand what drives you to be self destructive, because that's what they both are.

dubagirl · 20-12-2008, 12:26 AM

In a word, yes.
(Sorry, am in a low mood so my replies tend to be quite crappy)
My old old counsellor recognised this in me a couple of years ago- when i stopped self harming I started to starve myself. And then the starving stopped when I got back into self harming.
So yeah, pretty much the same (although I don't have an eating disorder as such, it's not as "severe" as that, just I restrict my calorie intake for a while).
Take care

melda · 20-12-2008, 07:15 PM

I am getting therapy and I have been looking at some of the reasons why I am the way I am, but I still dont know why I seem to be self destructive. It might be because of the sexual abuse I suffered, but I think that I am over that now and it doesnt really bother me so I dont know why Im still getting mental health issues. It doesnt make sense, I dont know where it is coming from, but even if I did know where it was coming from that doesnt help me change the way I am and it doesnt make me better. I dont know how to get out of this way of being. I cant see a light.

musicmad123 · 20-12-2008, 07:35 PM

yeah I understand completely I'm like that..