Triggering (Suicide) - majorly hacked off with psych

[jen-x]

I hate him right now!!! grrrr i could scream... i was so so positive today, had my blood test (no comments, it wasnt like she needed to ask i suppose), spoke to a tutor about getting extension until i'm less loopy with the meds and all so was doing ok... admittedly i havent slept in days so i know this positivity wasn't totally a safe thing in the first place

BUT i got home to a copy of the ltter from the psych to my gp, and it sucks!!! 'kept her wrists well out of my sight' (what?!?!? it was cold i had a jumper on!), 'refused to reveal suicide plan', 'family has extensive history of psychiatric problems'.......i HATE how they do this.... lies... you say one word, one little thing, and it's all thrown out of proportion... i'm soooo angry.... and yet i know i won't say anything!!!

it just sucks, reading something like that about yourself... the mental state exam sucked as did his report of it.... aaaaargh!!! now i feel even worse...

he said he 'didn't think it was time i should be giving up yet'.... i think he's lying, he knows it's not going to be any different... he knows i'm going to keep making them suffer! and now i'm getting confused about who's who, and who's working with who, on who's side again... grr..

sorry for ranting

jen xx

[whirlpools]

i'm sorry to hear this, it doesn't sound very helpful. and also it doesn't sound very professionally written at all. if he had wanted to see your wrists, i suppose he could have just asked, then you could have said yes or no. do you think he was right? i mean, were you trying to hide your wrists, and were you keeping a suicide plan secret? or was he just way off?

Quote:

'didn't think it was time i should be giving up yet'

and i don't think there is ever a "time" to be giving up.

xxx

[jen-x]

i wasnt hiding my wrists... they were covered, but i wasn't intentionally hiding my scars... if he'd asked i would've probably shown him

and he was right in that i refused to tell him what my plans are...

but there're soooo many places where he is just way off the mark!! sorry i think it's more that it's strange reading this stuff about yourself...it's just frustrating


thanks for replying,

jen xx

[tamobhuuta]

those letters annoy me too. if it's getting to you badly, you could bring it up with him, or another health professional if that'd be sooner. at least then they would know you disagreed with it and you could try to put them straight.