Does anybody else find that cutting words provides more relief than just cutting on it's own?
With me if I have some bad thoughts about myself going round my head
(example; your FAT and UGLY)
then it helps to get them out and see them written on me
But it wouldn't work if I wrote it in pen it has to be scarred onto me permantly. Or at least cut onto me for a while.
I feel like some kind of sense of acheivment because it hurts to write them there.
Or am I just crazy?
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
i was the same way. i cut "WHY?" on one thigh and "FAILURE" on my other thigh.
to be completely honest, i don't like it anymore.
now every time i'm in the shower, i have this constant reminder that i thought i was a failure. that i am a failure.
i don't like that.
but i can definitely understand where you're coming from;
you're not crazy at all.
"its weird that photographers spend years or even a whole lifetime,
trying to capture moments that, added together,
don't even amount to a couple of hours." -james lairopul keivom
Yeah i agree with that.
I have cut words that people have called me a lot. Words i have been abused with. And cutting them on me just proves its real.
The emotional scars from them words turn into physical scars.
Amy x
'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change ♥
i have a faint RIP at the top of my arm, nearish to my wrist, but that was the only time, and it was only scratched there tbh.
But words dont work the same, i prefer lines in a way
Ralph wept for the end of innocence, the darkness of man's heart, and the fall through the air of a true, wise friend called Piggy.
If we dont get home soon, we'll be barmy..
I've only ever done it once or twice, think I cut the word 'HATE' (and maybe 'DIE' as well, I can't remember) into my thigh, but never really got any extra satisfaction or owt from it
I cut four words in to thighs a couple of years ago and at the time it was an extra relief to have them, and it caused me great distressed and reminded me of "what I was".
I don't think you are crazy, I am sure it is something many people can relate to as I can myself
Take care, if you need to talk feel free to PM me.
xxx
I have done this before too. I ended up cutting "hate me" into my calf. I feel the same sense of achievement as you do, but afterwords, when it's all cleaned up and stuff, I start to feel really guilty and bad that I did it.
"Give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference"
"Don't judge me by the scars on my arms, instead help me to throw away the blade"
I had "I'm Sorry" on my bicep for almost a year. It works for the time, but later down the road, i feel bad about it. i still have to wear a shirt all the time because its still so prominent. the only time i was changing shirts and my friend saw it, she cried. she's seen lines, and she didn't react nearly the same way. (sorry for the blurb)
yeah, i find words really relped me. idk, it made them seem more real. i have 'worthless' in my thigh and 'ugly' on my arm. i reckon ill leard to hate them in time... :/
Alice
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and say it for me, say it to me;
and i'll leave this life behind me say it if its worth saving me
I've cut words before, most recently I cut 'slag' and 'whore' into my arms, and I absolutely hate them, it doesn't give me any more relief, in fact, if anything it makes me feel worse, especially as the word on the top of my arm has scarred really badly.
I guess at the time it helped, to get it out, it's just that now I'm really embarassed
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
I won't go into what words I've cut, because I went through a time where it was the only thing I cut. I've cut whole sentences before too, and now I have scarred words on top of faded scarred words. I don't really hate them, only how deep they were and the way I didn't look after them properly. Sometimes I wish I had, but others I wish I could re-open them. Words often do more for me than just lines, but it depends on my reason for cutting. If I'm conscious of doing it and I word comes then I cut it. If it's not a conscious thought and I would have to think of a word, then its just lines. It's usually lines when I'm angry.
sorry if there's any tip sharing there, take it out if there is
when ever i want to carve words on my body i just right on me in red marker instead it works for me. to bad it doesn't work at all when i just want to cut.
I have cut a word into my stomach once and to be honest, it was one of the biggest mistakes I have made.
Every time I try and keep positive and bring my self esteem up a bit, there is a huge word written on my stomach that drags my confidence back to 0 every time I look down at it.
When I first did it, and it was hurting, you can't even ignore for one second, it's there reminding you over and over of what you think of yourself.
I found relief in it at the beginning and yes, maybe more than just lines, but that soon passed.
~Beauty without intellence, is a materpiece painted on a napkin.~
I've cut words before when it's just felt like what I had to do (and once or twice when it didn't but I wanted to try it anyway), but most of the time I just cut lines. When I didn't feel like that's what I had to do and just did it anyway to see what would happen, it didn't work nearly as well as cutting lines did, but when I feel like I need to cut a word then it provides a lot more relief than cutting lines. Except for one time I cut a word with a Z in it and got the Z backwards, which just made me feel worse. But when I cut words, they're usually even less deep that regular lines, partly just because I'm being more careful about exactly where I'm cutting so it's harder to even draw blood at all, but also when I cut a word, I'm way more afraid of scars than I usually am. I think it's that if I cut lines and people see, they know I'm a cutter, but if they see a word, then they know that plus something about what I was thinking at the time that I picked that particular word. It's a lot more important to me to keep words hidden that lines, so if I end up with scars of words then I'll be stuck hiding them forever.
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i have only done this once and i engraved 'fake a smile' into my lower forarm. it took so long to fade. lines you can find excuses for it people just see one sticking out the bottom of a jumper or something but i dont think cats can spell that good.
You aren't crazy at all!
I've done that in the past, but not recently.
For me I have to be in a particular mood to cut words.
I had the urge to do it a few weeks ago. I wanted to brand myself with all the terrible things I thought about myself.
i have the word "fat" cut on me, well in a few places. my arms, my thighs and my stomach. i have to say, i do find it so relieving to cut words...even afterward just looking at them, reminding myself of what i am over and over. ok i guess im kinda weird...but yeah...oh well xXx
