Triggering (SI) - visions

[whoops]

i am getting images of harming myself... they are just flashes in front of my eyes, but they are so vivid. i can almost feel myself doing it. it is scaring me. they have happened before, but not so often. i feel like they have a grip on me and won't go away until i do something.

they make me feel constantly sick.

[pea soup]

im so sorry. this has actually happened to me before. it can be extremely hard to deal with. i usually take my anxiety meds when this happens. i dont know if you take any meds or not?
distractions can also be good. reading, music, writing, drawing, playing games, a nice bath, exercise. anything that helps you.
much love.
xx

[whoops]

i realised a few hours ago i forgot to take my meds... stupid stupid. i took them late, which is fine - except they keep me awake all night - now it is 6am and it is light outside... but i am starting to feel calmer... thankyou.

feeling very stupid - i never usually forget. coffee and meds in the morning like clockwork...

[The Hierophant]

Hope your ok now.