[This is not a "please diagnose me" post]
Recently I've been daydreaming. A lot. Of bad stuff. I dont even start off the daydreams by thinking of stuff that relates to it most of the time. I think I definitely have an overactive imagination or something. It happens even when I'm not bored or doing nothing. For example, I was in college, in the middle of taking notes in Chemistry and I had this vivid daydream of me hurting myself. I don't even want to hurt myself. I'm in recovery for god's sake, I shouldn't have these. I'm not halluciunating, because I pulled myself out of the daydream, but it was really hard, and then I was completely lost with what the lecturer was saying, I had no idea what he was saying or what it meant! My mind was [cant find a better blinking word] obsessed with this vision of me hurting myself. It happens when I see something that could potentially hurt me as well, like chemicals in the lab or some sort of sharp thing. My concentration is really bad recently too, but my mind isn't wandering off, its just blank, not a bored blank but a "can't think of anything" blank.
Is it worth telling anyone (professional-wise) about this? Because I really don't want to be told again by them that its normal for someone like me in recovery, when it doesn't feel normal at all.
[pointless]
The family therapists are feeding back to my psychiatrist (who is my care co-ordinator now) that my parents think I need more sessions with CAMHS, because for the last week, two weeks, I've only been seen by my support worker. I'm waiting on an appointment from the CPN at the clinic, because my psychologist has left for another job and she was the main person I saw so now I'm going to see the CPN instead but-she-just-hasn't-sent-the-blood-letter
. When the letters come through the appointment is usually for two weeks time so it'll be about 3 and a half weeks since I've had my therapy session. >_< I'm not being demanding I am not feeling great and I feel like they are just leaving me. I usually get great help from them and with my psychologist (who helped me the most with the therapy) leaving, everything is in such a mess now.
[/pointless]
I'm just so blah and I'm sorry I know I keep making posts about myself and stuff but when I'm feeling a bit better I'll try to reply to other peoples threads but at the moment I just can't think about anyone else.
