I know we don't really know each other but the number of times I've read a post with a random comment by you that has made me smile, makes me want to drop by with some hugs and help pick you up. Take care!
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
I can't remember where it is, and I don't have it on my USB anymore, but there was an article(?) about how to turn lonely into comfortable. I'll have a look for it when I get home tonight and type it up for you if you like. I can't remember what forum or anything it was in or I would go and look for it.
Not an awful lot I can help with as far as being low goes....although....have you ever tried exercise as a way of lifting your mood. I can promise you that it really helps me, although I know that when I am low it is always so hard to actually find the motivation to get up and go running or kickboxing. Also maybe some self-soothing and distraction?
Feeling lost. Do you mean you feel out of your depth? Or like life is spiralling out of control?
I'm not sure what to say about being lost, except I know how it feels. And I'm really trying to resist the urge to write a slightly smutty off topic quote about GPS.
Take care Matt.
*sends you hugs in a jar*
"Has anyone seen my contact lens? It may be stuckto a tree or a rock or something. Oh boy, I am so grounded" Family Guy
if everyone cared and nobody cried, if everyone loved and nobody lied, if everyone shared and swallowed their pride, we'd see the day that nobody died
Sometimes; when you've been ill for a long time, you take the bad for granted. You get used to it. Sooner or later it becomes the norm and then it gets diminished in your mind.
Then theres the times when you feel extra low. These are the scary times. These are not the cognitively affected lows, these are the chemical lows. The lows that knock you completely off your feet. Like a punch to the stomach you are left winded and incapacitated.
Im scared. Im scared im going to be this way forever. Im scared im never going to be happy again. Never going to function.
Im bitter and sour. I hate this time of year now and i hate the fact i hate it. I hate the fact that it now means misery. The more people get excited about it the more i resent it.
They are all going out tonight to the christmas faire. Im not going. It reminds me too much of all i have lost and miss.
I just want to go home.
Thing is........................i dont have one anymore.
*hugs*
I hope that you will be lifted from you low soon!!
I know we don't know each other overly well, but I have been seeing you around on all the threads around here and can see what a kind thoughtful and funny person you are. I am thinking of you and hoping your day today will be easier than yesterday, and the next one easier too.
If there's anything I can help you with, let me know.
Take care!
Remember there's no such thing as a small act of kindness.
Every act creates a ripple with no logical end. ~ Scott Adams
I wish I could fix all this for you and wave a magic wand and put things right for you because you deserve to be happy. And I wish had the words to express how much you really do. You've helped me and so many others so much. Lovelove
I'm so sorry that you're going through this, I can really relate to your feelings. I don't think there is much that anyone can say to make your pain go away. Please get in touch if you need anything. I'm thinking about you. Take care.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Is there anything that triggered such a bad feeling?
I hope you are lifted from being so low very soon. Are you on meds? If not then you should see a doctor. If you are then maybe see your doctor anyway and tell them whats happening. You may need a med change or increased dose.
Please let us know how you're going. You can PM me anytime if you want to talk about it
i just need to die. Whats there to live for when you have no life and no prospect of one.
Dont worry, im too stupid, scared, weak or whatever you want to call it to kill myself.
No i have a much worse fate ahead. More painful than any physical harm possible. Im begining to know what hell is and i have a ****ng good idea how to get there and stay there.
lol, how could i kill myself anyway when im already dead.
I am so sad hearing you talk about how you feel. I can only imagine what you must be feeling even though I can relate to times I have been in similar states
You won't stay like this forever even if it seems like right now. You will be able to function again, to not just survivie or get by, but live. And yes you are worth it and your life is worth living.
Look how many people here care about you! We are all surrounding you with as much support, love, and care as we can.
I know that doesn't pull you out of the hole you are in right now, but I believe in my heart you will find your way out and you can use the light we are shinin into the darkness to help.
Please hang in there and remember we all care very much and are here for you any time.
They bought curtains that were too long. They hung about 10 inches too long upon the floor. I didnt see them but was told. I said that its perfectly ok to do this and can create a luxurios feel. It falls on deaf ears. So i ask why not get them taken up. However rather than do this they buy new ones. These have been hung now and im assuming they like them.
They are now 12 inches off the floor.
You probably think im mad to get upset by this.
Im living in a world and a house i dont understand. Literally everything i say or think they think the oposite. Now i havent a clue if im right or not.
The protective plastic film is still on the television. It means i cant see a thing except for the reflection of the light. Its not allowed to com eoff until the rug is in the room incase the tv gets damaged.
wish i had something constructive but i dont.....the part where you said "i want to go home..things is...i dont have one" truly got me. i have said that so many times even when i actually do have one....but ive never felt completely comfortable anywhere...i can relate so you arent alone.
thinking of you Matt
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
A little Consideration, a little Thought for Others, makes all the difference.
How do you cope with this now the Sh is gone? I have no way to release.
I dont know what to do. I dont like myself enough to be nice and i just dont have the energy anyway.
I wanted to...............................................b ut now thats ****ed.
I dont want to be in this house at xmas. I want my christmas back at my mothers. Perhaps i could go and sit with my step father and watch pornos of me and my ex with him. Im sure he would like that. Then my mum can forgive him again and pretend its all okay.
I cant seem to do anyting nice.
Im not allowed to have good things.
I am so sad hearing you talk about how you feel. I can only imagine what you must be feeling even though I can relate to times I have been in similar states 
