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[Ms Tears Keep Fallin]

I would love a new psyh and a new gp as i feel niether offer me the help and support i require but as i am still waiting it's been 3 months now i think for a new cpn as mine left her job i think or is on long term leave i'm not sure of the truth and i hate to lie anyway a little support is better than not at all i suppose my gp deals with my fibromyalgia and it's many differing ever changing symptoms except the pain the pain is always there and my psyh just tells me once amonth there is not much she can do for me and i need to help myself more coming here for support was her idea as i don't leave the house she said the internet is the only place i can go to say i never leave the house would be wrong but for the last 2 years i have gone out less and less i don't even take my kids to school anymore i stopped that about a year ago for the past 8 months or so i only go out the house to see my doc or psyh so thats about twice a month i have no friends left whatsoever and the only adult conversation i get is with my partner and myself coming here and reading the threads is the well to be honest i'm not sure what it is i often feel people are writing about me but i guess we just feel simalar it's very lonely in the world when you spend the hours your awake alone reding other peoples thoughts worries and problems i only wish i could help each and every one of you i really do i'm not around in the day as i hide upstairs most of the time thats why i am always on at night so i miss most of you but i do read all the threads and i wish you all the best i also wish ......................... i had a reason to live that i was not alone that i could eat and that i was not afraid i can't even admit everything to a screen what hope of i got in telling a pysh i really dislike and a doc whos ok i guess sorry to bore you well i probably havn't cause you wont have read it and why should you i am a complete waste of time and space

[SecretMe]

*Offers lots of hugs*

Hey there, I bet you do feel lonely and that has me really sad. You aren't alone here. No way. Like you said, when you read what so many of us write, you can relate to it can't you?

I am very proud of you for posting as much as you could about how you are feeling inside. It is scary to type it on the screen you know people will read... let alone say it out loud. You're right about that. I can relate to that feeling and I have a doc I like and other professionals who help. Sometimes I still can't bring myself to say what is really inside.

As for what you can give to this site... you have given to the site. And you bring yourself every time you post even if it is about yourself and you are worth a lot. It's a lot to give. Support is hard to give sometimes but for some people it is even harder to share pieces of themselves.

We are here for you and I hope to see you post more. You know if you find someone here that you really relate to, try sending them a private message and talking that way if it is less scary. And you can open up at your own pace no matter what you decide is best.

I know Fibromyagia is awful to live with (I have it) besides anything you add on to it. Take care of yourself and hang in there, hun. Go easy on yourself. I'm here if you ever want to send me a message.

[one_step_closer]

I'm sorry that you're not getting the support that you need and deserve, having to wait for support for so long and having people leave can be very frustrating. Are there other GPs in your surgery that you could maybe be transferred to? You have the right to change your GP if you are not happy with them, perhaps you could see someone at another surgery if there are no other GPs in your area. Some GPs don't have a great deal of knowledge about mental health but there are others who know a lot more. Do you know any techniques for coping with the chronic pain? There are many books that might be helpful, or you could try searching on the internet.

It's pretty annoying when people tell you that only you can help yourself, what do you think that your psych could do to support you? It is true that you need to be doing things for yourself but you also need others to help you to do those things. Why is it that you don't go out very often any more? Could you try to gradually build up the time that you spend out of the house? I think that getting out and seeing more of the world would be very beneficial for you and might help you to feel less alone. Perhaps you could look into joining groups in your local area to meet new people, although I know that can seem like a very scary thing to do. Also, there might be a befriending service in your area where someone could help you to get out and do things as they would do those things with you.

Sometimes it seems like there is no reason to live, but there are so many if you really open your eyes. What would you like to change in your life? What would be your ideal future, and what goals do you have? Working towards your goals in little steps can be really rewarding and allow you to feel that your life has a purpose. I hope that you are able to get the right support for you, please keep posting here if it helps. Get in touch if you need anything. Take care.