help

[shadowedsoul]

erm hi, i really dont know what iam doing anymore. everyday is a struggle, i struggle at work to cope with everthing, everybody thinks iam ok,when inside iam really down, iam really glad no on one can read my mind because they would be shocked at the stuff thats being running through it lately. iam having really stuiped thoughts, which are scareing the crap out of me, and iam to scared to tell anyone. they might think iam just attenion seeking or making it up. i dont want to tell my freind it would scare her too much. its just getting harder and harder not to act on these thought, as noithing i do ever seam like its good enough.

[green.eyes]

if you mean you're having suicidal thoughts or thoughts or seriously harming yourself i think its really important you tell someone. are you being treated for depression or anything like that? if not do you feel able to tell your doctor how you're feeling? they might be able to refer you to a counselling service or else put you on medication to combat your low mood.
think of it this way, how would you feel if your friend was feeling this low and didn't tell you? you'd want her to confide in you right? maybe you could just tell her a bit of what's going on, just that you're a bit down or something if you don't feel able to open up fully.
meanwhile remember you can talk to us on here, you're not alone!
take care
*hugs*

[shadowedsoul]

thanks for the relpy, iam seeing a counseller, he seams to think iam okay i just think iam wasteing his time, and iam really scared to tell him how i have been feeling. he will knowing my luck just think iam looking for attenion. i have really had enough of everthing, i just cant no matter what i do get it right, this would scare the crap out of my freind. and my perents, sorry

[Cazki]

*Cuddles you* Im sorry that your having a difficult time. Whats happening for you? Are you able to talk to us about what it is thats making you so deppressed? Sorry to sound harsh but unless your honest with your counsellor then how can he help you? He has no way of knowing your not ok unless you tell him. He will continue to think your unless you open up to him. He wont think your attention seeking at all. Im really sorry that everyday is a struggle for you.

He will be able to help you more if you tell him the truth about how your feeling. Are you on any medication? If not and you do decide to open up to him then it may be helpful to you if you think about going on some anti- depressants. If its easier for you perhaps you could write a letter to your counsellor explaining how you feel? I really urge you to talk to your counsellor about how you feel or if you dont feel you can talk to him face to face then as i said perhaps you could look at writing a letter to him? Are you able to talk to yoru parents abouthow you feel? Please keep talking to us. We are here for you.

Take care all the best Ian

[shadowedsoul]

thanks for the reply. erm i dont really want to say making me feel so depressed. all i can say is i really hate myself, and feel like iam just a waste of space, and this world would be better of without me in it. .tryed to hang myslf before but chicked out. iam just not happy right now, and iam being pushed to my limit, and iam scared to tell the consoller how bad i have gotten, as stuiped as that sounds. sorry iam being a whiney baby. =/