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Triggering (OD) - lowest ever
For the past few days i have been the lowest i've been in a very long time. I am fighting the call to od i have lost all hope of ever feeling better i hardly see my kids or my partner even tho we all live in the same house i am in bed most days hiding from the world including them i just can't bear to be around people anymore i doubt i will ever get the help i need on the nhs and with out a lotto win getting it any other way is out of the question i have tryed to get help so many times and it just seems to fall on deaf ears i hate living in this world and i am so alone and i have no clue why i typing this as it's not making me feel any better at all i just wish i could go to bed with my pills and medicence and make sure i don't wake up i don't think i want to die but living like this for the next 3o od years real does not appeal i'm lost with no light or spade
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